light in the dark ; mileven

18.

EL.

"mike?" i quietly murmured as i peeled my eyes open and was hit with the bright light coming in from the balcony.

we must have fell asleep during the movie we were watching last night.

removing myself from his hold, i sat back against the arm of the couch then i began to shake him awake. "get up, freckles,"

he murmured something and so i did my usual trick that i've learnt to wake him. i figured it out when i was six.

climbing on top of him and then straddling his lap, i set my hands on his face the rubbed his cheek and the forced his eyes open as i leaned in real close.

"wakey wakey!" i laughed and he finally stirred and opened his eyes on his own.

"i forgot how annoying you are in the mornings," he mumbled and turned his face to the side.

"i'm not annoying! it's late," i said, once i glanced at the clock.

it was only 12, but we needed to get up and get on with the day. i still needed to finish cleaning from last night and i needed to meet up with amos since we're going shopping without max who has a rehearsal for her upcoming show.

look, i love max, but fashion shows are so boring. you sit there and watch people walk in clothes i probably wouldn't buy.

who would buy a plastic bag that people claim to be fashion? probably some people but that some isn't me.

and max is never near the start and i have to sit through the whole thing. i don't want to be rude either when they see me falling asleep.

max knows this and she doesn't mind it because she sends me pictures and videos of herself to me on set instead. and i think that's enough.

she does look absolutely stunning in all videos and pictures.

"it's twelve, star," he whispered and i smiled and stood up from the couch, "i'll make you some food. there's guest stuff in the bathroom just in the counters below."

"you don't have to. you can use the bathroom first," he said.

"you just want to sleep more," i stated and he didn't even hesitate to nod.

laughing, i ruffled his curls and i went to the bathroom to get ready for the day first.

is it possible to still feel full from last night? because i certainly do. jesus, we ate a lot.

i cooked a lot but we finished all of it which made me insanely happy.

i'm sure mom would be very proud of me.

♣︎

"amos, it doesn't matter how the flowers are," i said, watching amos place the baby breaths in different spots around the giant tree.

"i want them pretty for rae," he said and i smiled, "it'll be fine." i told him.

we couldn't get her a grave, so i just settled a spot by this giant tree on the top of a hill. it wasn't a spot designated for her, people could come and go as they please here, but i just wanted a spot for her.

but actually, not many people came up here, it was a lot of work coming up here because you could only drive a third of the way and the rest is walking, but some people did come up to enjoy the view.

"let's go do some shopping now," amos grinned and wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

"sure," i nodded and gave the flowers a little wave before amos led us both back towards the stairs to make our way down to the car.