Poetry of the Soul

Panick Attack

(TW anxiety)
It usually builds up and I want to scream.
It happens after every bad dream.
I can't breathe, it feels like I'll suffocate.
I can't stand to be in this mental state.
At this point there's nothing I can control.
Every time this happens it takes a metal toll.
I'm trying my best but it's not good enough.
I can't stop this, god why is my breathing so rough.
My mind is tearing me down and telling me I'll always fail.
I feel like I'm trying to walk through a storm of hail.
My mind is too loud, I really can't hear.
I know this is only due to all the pent up fear.
I can't breathe, and I can't see straight.
Every time I wonder “is this where I meet my fate?”
Its help that I need to try and seek.
Then I remember I can't move, nor can I speak.
People are asking if I'm okay, they don't know I can't respond.
I wish for a moment they could see me drowning in my emotional pond.
I keep trying to get out, but it won't stop.
Each time I force myself to breathe my head will then drop.
I can't do this, I'm not okay.
There are no right words for anyone to say.
They can't help even though they're trying.
I'm just stuck sitting here crying.
Is this really all I can do?
For how long will this torture continue?
It's been half an hour but my breath is finally coming back.
I think I'm finally getting out of this horrid panic attack.