don't hurt me. ❖◈➼ sunoo x jungwon

【16】

『 Only love was ripe, flowers that will gradually fall. Is there any left? Hurry up, ride the spring breeze. A beautiful flower over there that is still holding on. 』— Lyrics of ONEWE's song, ❝End of Spring❞

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as sunoo tossed and turned in bed that night, his mind kept replaying the scenes from earlier the day. his lips lingered jungwon's soft skin and he smiled, reaching up to his lips, and he knows he unconsciously blushed.

it wasn't that sunoo didn't like jungwon...

he wouldn't deny if anyone asked him if his feelings were real to jungwon.

he knows jungwon would not return his feelings, but that didn't stop him.

slowly, sunoo creeps out of bed to check on jungwon, and there he was, staring out the window peacefully. sunoo reached out to smooth jungwon's hair but slowly withdrew his hand. instead, he whispers to jungwon.

❝why are you still awake so late?❞

it seems that jungwon was startled and he whips his head around.

relieved it was only sunoo, jungwon smiled. ❝i was thinking.❞

❝about what?❞ sunoo asks, sitting next to jungwon on the bed.

jungwon shakes his head lightly. ❝about how things would've been different if you and i never crossed paths, or even if my life was nothing but a nightmare. if all my experiences were mere imaginary things in my sleep, then who really are you? who really am i? would my brother still be there when i wake up? would i have gone through the pain i did when my ex hurt me? it's all a confusion in my head, and i can't sleep with it all running through my brain.❞

sunoo smiled. ❝it must be confusing. do you want to talk about all of it?❞

jungwon nodded and sunoo opened the window slightly, knowing jungwon always loved some comforting winds.

as jungwon kept talking sunoo laid jungwon's head on his chest and jungwon didn't seem to notice as he continued to ramble softly.

❝who's your ex?❞ sunoo had asked out of curiosity.

jungwon had hesitated before answering with a tone barely above a whisper.

❝sunghoon.❞

sunoo had gasped but regained his posture.

❝really?! how come i've never heard him mention you before?❞ sunoo whisper-yelled.

jungwon shrugged. ❝he never even announced us.❞ he laughs half-heartedly.

sunoo wraps the smaller boy into a comforting hug. ❝i'm sorry about that, but the sunghoon i know is a very loving person?❞

jungwon folds his arms around sunoo as well, not seeming to mind the two's intimacy. ❝he was loving to me before. i don't know what happened, but he started to be distant toward me. i thought maybe it was because he had a bad day, but the behaviour continued on until he kept insulting me and verbally abusing me. of course, there was no real damage done to my body, but the scars remain forever in my head.❞