don't hurt me. ❖◈➼ sunoo x jungwon

【19】

-sorry for such a long hiatus lol

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❝well, you guys seem close,❞ jihoon states, having observed the couple too many times.

❝why wouldn't we be?❞ sunoo smiled. 

jungwon somewhat shakes his but he's glad to see sunoo's genuine expression.

❝hey guys.❞ 

jungwon freezes. that voice. so familiar. a voice that jungwon never wanted to hear again. 

jake cheered. ❝yo sunghoon! why didn't you tell me you're arriving today?❞

jungwon tuned the rest of the conversation out. he had been expecting this to come before anyway, but he didn't know it'd be so early. 

he felt like he was stuck in his spot, and he didn't even bother adverting his gaze to the newcomer at the table. sunoo waved his hand in front of jungwon's face to snap him out of his daze.

❝won, jay hyung is calling you.❞

jungwon, eyes unmoving, turns his head to face jake. he plasters on a fake smile.

❝jungwon! lemme introduce you to my friend, sunghoon!❞

sunoo pulled jungwon up by the hand. ❝sorry hyung, but jungwon doesn't feel too good right now, maybe it's a stomach bug, we'll come back though!❞

it wasn't all a lie, jungwon did feel sick to his stomach as sunoo dragged them to the men's washroom and blocked the door with cleaning supplies and hugged jungwon. they stayed quiet like they always do when they hug and all one could hear was jungwon's ragged breath, whether it was from running to the washroom or from panicking. he couldn't feel or hear anything around him except that horrifying pain in his chest. it was a feeling like someone slowly pushing many needles one by one into him but it also felt like someone set off an explosive in his chest. that someone was certainly sunghoon. he was scared to hug sunoo back, but he was also worried if he didn't, sunoo will leave him there. 

and then it happened. sunoo let go of him.

jungwon fumbled to grip sunoo's shirt, his hand, his hair, anything.

his hand finds sunoo's again and he holds in a tightening locking grip, refusing to let go. so with no choice, sunoo holds jungwon up while heading for the sink, wetting the napkin to wipe jungwon's eyes. jungwon hadn't even realized he was crying.

❝you okay?❞ sunoo says, breaking the silence. jungwon doesn't have an answer, but he is sure he is far from okay. instead, he shuffles closer to sunoo, if that's even possible, and lets out a single sob. he can't comprehend anything right now, and he feels at loss. would sunghoon recognize him? would he pick on him and poke fun?

sunoo noticed his boyfriend was still in a daze, so he continued to rub the boy's back and wipe his face with a warm tissue. jungwon's eyes are blank as if he was soulless and dead inside. his heart aches to even think about what he used to love so much has now become his worst nightmare. he couldn't bear the pain of now what he loved left like what he used to love, and he clung to sunoo like the end of the world was approaching. someone knocked on the bathroom door and asked if jungwon was okay. jungwon immediately recognizes the voice and tells sunoo to open the door.

as the door opens, it reveals minghao's newly dyed pink hair and a worried minghao.

❝are you...❞ minghao doesn't bother to finish the question instead he pats jungwon's head and helps him up. ❝i think we should go back.❞ he says and jungwon shakes his head.

❝i don't wanna...❞

minghao shrugs at him. ❝well, you'll have to face him one way or the other, better to get it over now like ripping off a band-aid.❞

sunoo agrees.

jungwon finally collects himself. ❝fine.❞

as the three stepped out of the washroom, sunoo felt another burning rage in the pit of his stomach. he knows very much this is jealousy and he lets it burn. he wouldn't want to destroy the lovely friendship between minghao and jungwon.

❝there you guys are. i was so worried about you jungwon.❞ jay smiles and jake rolls his eyes, gesturing for him to introduce sunghoon already.

❝oh yeah! this is my friend sunghoon! he and jake are obliviously dating.❞

❝hah?!❞

sunghoon gazes up, his eyes blank of emotion as he finds jungwon and within seconds he glances back down at his phone. jungwon feels disappointed when sunghoon doesn't say anything but he'd rather feel disappointed than embarrassed about their past.

❝hey guys!❞ yeonjun and his still vibrant cotton candy-coloured hair appear and he gasps when he sees sunghoon.

❝hey, i know you! you're that one kid the principal asked me to show around! your name was... songhoon..?❞ and the table giggled and yeonjun frowned, stomping his foot. ❝soobinnie! why are they laughing at me?!❞

soobin shakes his head and sighs. ❝his name is sunghoon, not songhoon.❞

yeonjun smiles sheepishly. ❝oh. sorry 'bout that.❞

as sunoo notices soobin making his way toward him, he stands up. soobin smiles and gestures that they step away from the table. placing a kiss on the top of jungwon's head, sunoo joins his brother in the hallway and they walk further away from the table before soobin asks, ❝is jungwon okay?❞

sunoo shrugs. ❝can't say he's feeling the best right now.❞

❝what's wrong?❞ soobin inquires.

❝don't know if i can tell you, but i'll say it anyway.❞

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jungwon couldn't focus on his food as he stirred the rice on his plate and he kept stealing glances at sunghoon. obliviously dating? what is that supposed to mean?

yeonjun notices jungwon seeming off, so he seats himself beside jungwon.

❝you should probably eat that rice before it gets cold.❞

jungwon is startled by the sudden voice but he says, ❝i'm not hungry.❞

yeonjun doesn't say anything but continues to eat.

❝is there something wrong with me hyung?❞ 

yeonjun is caught off guard by the question.