don't hurt me. ❖◈➼ sunoo x jungwon

【20】

- hi it's been a year! this is the end btw

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❝there's nothing wrong with you jungwon. why would you say that?❞

jungwon smiles, but it doesn't reach his eyes. ❝just a gut feeling.❞

❝how could you say that? we all love you.❞

the younger shakes his head. ❝you're wrong.❞

yeonjun lets out a low laugh. ❝you know i'm right. you're funny, you know that? if there's something wrong with you, you wouldn't be here.❞

❝i can still be here looking right but inside i'm wrong. yeonjun hyung, you wouldn't understand. everyone loves you. trendsetter, mood uplifter, our school's it boy, soobin hyung's boyfriend, you're everything. no one dares pick on you, do they? but me? have you seen the way they even look at me?❞

the pink haired places his head on jungwon's shoulder. ❝what people are on the outside isn't the same on the inside, like you said. popularity isn't going to feed me. the happy-go-lucky yeonjun might not even be the real me. but sometimes, you've got to learn to embrace the inside and acknowledge it is you too. it's not the end of the world if not everyone likes you.❞

❝but what if the jungwon inside is a monster?❞

yeonjun lets out a hearty laugh again. ❝let it be then. no one will mess with you then.❞

❝yeonjun hyung. i'm serious.❞

❝right.❞

❝hyung, what if i ever lose the privilege to call sunoo mine? what if i lose the way we'd get into petty fights about the stupidest things? what if there's a day where i'd really lose you all, the way you'd ask me if i was okay and eating lunch together?❞

yeonjun smiles and the smile is so bright, it's almost contagious. ❝you know we'd never leave you. you're the most precious person i've encountered so far and such a good friend. knowing sunoo, he wouldn't fall for someone so easily, so if he fell for you, i'm sure he'll treasure you like the only thing that mattered.❞

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and that was three years ago. now, sunoo and jungwon lived together, away from those horrible high school memories. they cherished each moment they could spend with each other, knowing nothing lasts for eternity. 

❝hey, sunoo?❞

sunoo turned back, staring at the back of jungwon's head, who was working hard in the kitchen, trying out a new recipe. ❝yeah?❞

❝i love you.❞

sunoo laughed, crawling up from the couch and hugging jungwon from behind. ❝that's so random. i love you too though.❞

jungwon frowned down at the food. ❝i had a nightmare yesterday. thinking we never met in high school, thinking you loved someone else, thinking i was still stuck with sunghoon, that abusive ex. everything was messy in that nightmare. it felt so realistic too, and i couldn't go back to bed after waking up.❞

sunoo reached up to pet jungwon's hair, smiling affectionately. ❝don't be silly. we're here now, and that's all that matters. we can't go back to the past, or speed to the future. so let's enjoy what we have now.❞

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redamancy
(n.) the act of loving the one who loves you; a love returned in full.