Torn

Chapter Eighteen

Ma'Leyah

It's been a week since the car crash-Chres didn't make it.

There have been calls coming in from left to right and there wasn't anything I could do about it. And that was because I was all under Jaden's authority. I've been out of touch so long that people were starting to get worried. The thoughts rampaged my head on what they thought could be wrong with me-or maybe even the kids. This whole situation was complete torture to me. More like hell on earth and I wish I could wish myself with my kids away.

"Ma'Leyah, get the fuck up!" Jaden barked, punching my arm. I winced, and held my arm in pain. "Our baby girl is hungry," he snarled. I scrunched my face up. "She's not you-" he backed hand my mouth, throbbing my mouth. Damn, why can't I keep my mouth shut and thoughts to myself? "I'm sorry sir," that's the name I was obligated to call him, "I'll go feed the baby."

I scurried out of the room and into the kids' room. Chre'Maya was screaming to the top of her lungs and Jadailah was laying under her pillow. I picked Chre'Maya up and caressed her head, trying to calm her down. I quickly sat down, and fished one of my breasts out for Chre'Maya to eat. She began to feed, and I patted Jadailah's leg. She looked at me.

"Are you hungry?" I asked. Her stomach answered me before she did. She rubbed her stomach with an embarrassed expression on her face. I sighed.

"It's okay Jay, mommy will fix you something, okay?" I reassured her. She nodded. I slowly stood up and strolled to the kitchen with Chre'Maya in my arms. I went into the cabinets to see there was barely anything for the kids to eat. I took out some macaroni and oven rib lets. I sat them both on the counter, trying to find some kind of vegetable for dinner. There was barely any. As skinny Jaden is, it's hard to believe that he doesn't eat his veggies. I hurried to finish feed Chre'Maya because to be honest, I was starving as well. She finished in good timing and I laid her in her rocker a few feet from where I was cooking. I prepared everything and cooked the meal. When the smell of the food hit my stomach, my stomach turned flips. I prepared three plates, and sat them at the dining room. Quickly, I went to get Jadailah and sat her in her high seat to eat. Next I had to get Jaden.

I went into the bedroom he was in.

"Uh, sir, dinner is ready," I said nervously. I was jittering like I was suffering a seizure. He looked at me and nodded. "I'll be there shortly," he waved me off. I quickly walked out of the room, and sat at the dining room table. I said a small prayer before engulfing my food. Within minutes, Jadailah and I were finished with our servings.

"Damn, y'all was that hungry?" Jaden laughed. He grabbed his plate and walked away laughing. "Fat asses," he laughed. I sighed and gathered the dishes, taking them to be washed.

Hours later, I had the kids in their room sleep, and I was in the bedroom laying down. Jaden came in the room, taking his shirt off. He threw his shirt into the dirty clothes. He climbed in the bed with me. He looked at me, and ran his hand up my thigh. I looked at him uncomfortably.

"Come on Leyah, don't be nervous, just relax." he said. I sighed, and laid back. He pushed up my dress and pulled off his sweatpants. He climbed on top of me, and kissed on my neck. I missed the old Jaden. At one point of time, Jaden was the nicest person you'd ever meet. Then, drugs came along. He pulled off my dress and eyed my body. He snatched off both of our underwear. I don't wish to be back with him, all I wish is for the old Jaden to come back. He slid himself into me deeply causing me to moan loud. He always knew how to please me very well, that's how Jadailah came along, of course. He began to thrust deeply into me as everything in me went wild. He thrust deep into me, as I breath hard in and out. Damn near gasping. He began to pound himself into me, making me moan louder and throw my head back even further. I clawed his back and he pushed himself deeper and deeper in me. "Ahh shit," I squealed, with one hand on the headboard and the other around his neck. He had the tightest grip on my thighs as he thrust himself deep inside of me.

My moans sound more like cries because the sex was just-amazing. It was like the old Jaden I was with long time ago. He gripped my thighs hard and he quickened his pace, making me moan louder.