do you still love me? | minsung

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time flew by quick, it was already night. chan, felix, and jisung went on first, while changbin volunteered on packing some things up for him and jisung for an overnight in chan's house. he made sure to pack extra for jisung since felix suggested they would bake brownies and what not, and knowing those two, it sure will be messy.

chan pulled up in front of their house, felix quickly getting out and pulling jisung inside as they giggled in happiness. they passed the kitchen where they heard talking which made felix turn his head a little and widening his eyes. he tried to pull jisung upstairs already when he felt jisung not budging.

he faced jisung who was gazing at minho's back facing them, as the other who was on minho's lap tapped his shoulder. minho looked behind and his and jisung's eyes met. felix clearly saw jisung's expression dampen.

jaemin scrambled off minho's lap, standing up and bowing at jisung and felix, clearly embarrassed. jisung doesn't know why, but he felt a pang of pain shoot in the middle of his heart. something about that feeling made his eyes sting.

he shouldn't feel like this. he should be happy for them both and this shouldn't have affected him so much.

jisung realized he was staring too long so he flinched when felix tugged at his hand. he widened his eyes and turned to jaemin, bowing back. minho blinked a few times before standing up and walking closer to jisung.

"hey ji.." minho greeted with a bit of awkwardness in his tone.

"h-hey.." jisung gave a half-hearted smile to the older.

"what brings you here?" minho asked him, somewhat nervous from jisung being around.

"me and changbin are staying over for the night, we have to work on a project and chan decided to work on it here.." jisung laughed awkwardly, clearing his throat and biting his lip as he looked around, trying to avoid minho's eyes.

his eyes landed on the boy standing shyly near the barstool next to the kitchen counter, "is that your boyfriend?" jisung asked minho as he now looked directly in his eyes. jisung just hoped that his eyes will not betray him when he felt them sting.

he just couldn't let himself look sad. at least not in front of minho who was already in a relationship with jaemin.

minho nodded slowly, jisung smiled bittersweetly before looking back at jaemin, "care to introduce me, minho?" jisung kept his smile on as he swallowed thickly.

"ah, yes.." the older called his boyfriend to go next to him which the younger quickly went next to minho.

jisung saw the arm minho slung on jaemin's shoulders, he tried his best to not mind it. "jaemin, this is jisung. jisung, this is my boyfriend jaemin." minho introduced.

jisung stared at the boy who bowed at him respectfully and said hello. he smiled and reached out his hand for jaemin to shake, "hello, i'm han jisung."

"na jaemin, it's nice to meet you jisung." he took his hand and shook them shyly.

he looked at minho who smiled at the both of them, then back at jaemin. he couldn't help but feel a sharp sting in his heart. he couldn't help but feel somewhat insecure.

he looked down and stepped back, "you two look great together. i know that you're a good one for minho, jaemin." jisung earned a soft expression from jaemin, he turned to minho, "you better take care of this one right here, lee." he pointed at jaemin and used a joking stern tone to lighten the mood.

which it surprisingly did when minho laughed, "i will.."

jisung inhaled a breath, blinking away the tears he felt that started to pool in his eyes. he did somehow make the mood lighten. however his emotions didn't lighten one bit, and he refused to make it noticeable. at least not in front of them both.

"w-well then.. we'll leave you two be.." jisung bowed his head and tugged felix's arm to start making their way to his room.

minho just followed jisung's figure disappear. he felt slightly  guilty, but for what reason should he feel guilty? he and jisung fixed everything between them already, and they should just focus on rebuilding their friendship.

besides, he's moved on years ago.

right?

jaemin, on the other hand, noticed minho's eyes following felix and jisung's figure. specifically at jisung who walked away from them. he sadly sighed and looked away. disappointed and sad at the thought that minho might still have feelings towards the other.

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"are you sure? you don't look fine to me.." felix worried for his gloomy friend.

"i'm alright, felix. i'm happy for them both."

"keep telling yourself that, i know you jisung. whenever i know you're gloomy, the things you say are what you want to believe and are the opposite of how you really feel." felix said, receiving a sigh from the older-by-a-day who plopped himself on felix's bed.

"you know you can tell me things ji.." he gave the boy who was face down on the mattress a sympathetic smile.

jisung finally broke, he shook lightly as he felt felix pull him in for a comforting hug. they just stayed like that, no one uttered a word and only jisung's quiet sobs and small sniffles were heard.

the door of the room opened, only to be closed again by changbin when he saw they needed privacy.

"aren't i supposed to be fine with this whole thing, felix? aren't i supposed to be happy rather than being in this state?" jisung said out between light whimpers.

"oh honey, it's okay to be upset. i know you expected something else when he came back, but none of that was near your expectations. healing takes time, so if you aren't fully healed from what you went through back in high school, then it's all alright to feel like this." felix rubbed his back comfortingly, hugging his twin tighter.

"really, what am i going to do without a lee felix in my life?" jisung smiled.

"yeah, same question.." felix responded and laughed.

"come on, chan and changbin must be waiting for you in the living room. are you ready to go out?" the younger asked.

"yeah, they might not be there anymore." felix gave him a reassuring smile and lead him out of the room.

there they saw both chan and changbin with headphones on and eyes glued on their laptops. changbin noticed the two, he scooted away from his current place on the couch to give jisung some space to work, while felix just watched what chan was doing.

after hours, they finally finished the project they were given. changbin and chan felt sleepy, however jisung was wide awake as an owl, resulting to felix and him now baking while changbin slept on the couch bed jisung and him were going to sleep on, while chan slept on the other couch bed in the living room too.

"shh felix, we might wake them.."

"then that will be good if they do! they can judge the cookies!" jisung just chuckled as he poured flour into the bowl, powder flew everywhere, getting their aprons dirty and faces powdered in flour. they laughed it off as it always happened when they would bake together.

they continued following the instructions, making a mess in the process. felix put a whole lot of chocolate chips, playing with them with jisung throwing them in each other's mouths. they were now currently shaping the cookies and placing them neatly on the tray. felix put them in the oven and they cleaned the kitchen while they waited for them to bake.

jisung and felix chatted about the amusement park they will be going to while sitting on the bar stools. the cookies already finished baking, they were just letting them cool down now.

the cookies cooled, and they ate a bit of them before getting ready for bed. jisung took his clothes that changbin packed for him. he mentally thanked changbin for bringing extra clothes. as he got out of the bathroom, he found felix already asleep in his boyfriend's embrace. he smiled at them before going to sleep beside changbin who hugged him from behind from just noticing his presence.

jisung closed his eyes, letting out a sigh. he thought that thinking about earlier with jaemin and minho will just leave him awake the whole night, so he decided to give his mind some rest for now and dozed off.