Together Forever (a Superman love story)

Chapter 7

*Edited*

   It's December 23rd, and I haven't heard from Clark. I haven't seen him either. It's like he just disappeared. It's like he was never a part of my life. For the past five months, ever since we broke up, the only thing I do, is get up, go to work, come home, go to bed. That's it. I cut my friends and family out of my life. I am a mess. I am becoming depressed, and I don't want to be in this world anymore. I can't take care of myself, and all I want to do was leave. I wonder around the city sometimes, when I don't want to be inside. Today I want to do that, but it is raining. That isn't going to stop me. I throw something on and grab my black, long, fleece coat and walk out the door. I am relieved when the cold water touches my skin. It feels so good. I walk around slowly, dragging my feet , looking into random shops. To most people I look like a zombie. For others I look like a lunatic, but I don't really care.

   I am walking in between two stores when I look to my right and see a long alley way. I see a man in a blue and red suit. I've been seeing Clark a lot lately when I know it's just my imagination, but I lose my mind when I do.

   "Clark?" I yell. My voice echoes down the long alley. He stands with his hands to his sides, relaxed.

   "Is that you?" I yell again. I start to walk his way. He turns around and slowly walks in the opposite direction. I am yelling his name over and over again when I start to run and no matter how fast I run, I can't catch up to him. I end up on the wet ground, crying in my hands.

   Someone comes up behind me and rests their hand on my shoulder and another on my back and I look up to see my next door neighbor, Zöe. We've gotten pretty close over the past couple of months. She brings me to my feet and takes me home. I tell her about Clark, leaving out the whole alien thing and his last name, after she moved in and she experienced the same thing, but her boyfriend didn't have super powers so kind of the same thing. When we walk into my bedroom, she thinks that maybe I would like a shower. She tells me to get undressed while she warms up the water. I walk into the bathroom where she is, getting the water going for me. I don't mind being naked in front of her. I don't care. I don't care about anything. I just want to sleep. She turns around, focusing her attention to the floor and  puts some towels on the counter, then walks out, shutting the door behind her. I don't want to stand, so I lay down. I can't think straight anymore. It is hard thinking about anything else other than Clark.

   Zöe would always tell me that you don't know what you have until it's gone. I agree. I shouldn't have let Clark go. It's like when he left, he took apart of me with him, and the rest of me is going to fall apart if I don't get that piece back, but as much as I still love him, getting him back wouldn't be a very good idea either. Loosing him hurt, yes, but getting him back would hurt more; because if he hurt me again, I don't think that I would be able to live with myself. I've loved him for a really really long time. And I wouldn't know what to do with my life if he hurt me again. What am I thinking, I can't get him back and even if I did, he wouldn't hurt me again... right?

   I just want to talk to him. Get all my anger and sadness out of my system. Maybe that will make me feel better. All these emotions are killing me on the inside and I just have to get them out or I'll explode. I just have to talk to him. But how? I don't know where he is.... oh right. His mom.

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   "Autumn! come in, come in!" Clark's mom insists, letting me through the front door. I had to take an eight hour flight just to get here. Kind of a spur of the moment thing.

   "How are you?" She asks. I smile, but then it fades.

   "Honestly, not good. But I came here to talk to you about something. Do you have any idea where Clark is?" I question, sitting down on her couch. She sits across from me in the chair.

   "He was here a couple days ago, but I haven't seen him since. Why do you ask?" She asks, crossing her legs. I rub my palms on the top of my legs, feeling a bit anxious. 

   "Well, I kind of need to talk to him. It's important." I say, looking her straight in the eye to let her know I mean business.

   "Yeah darlin' I haven't seen or heard from him in a while. Have you tried calling him?"

   "Yes." I answer quickly.

   "I guess you can come back in the next few weeks. I know you live far, so I think it's best if you go home, sweetheart. You look like you haven't slept in days." She tries to push me out the door, but I have a gut feeling that she's lying about Clark.

   "I don't need sleep! I need to talk to Clark!" I yell just a little too loud. She takes a couple steps away from me, and I hear a noise upstairs. I look to the stairs, then back at her, then back at the stairs.
"Why did you lie to me?" I stare at her with more hatred in my eyes than I intended to have.

   "I'm sorry.... He's just not ready to see you." She tries to push me out the door, but I shove my way through. I laugh a little, then scowl.

   "I'm starting to think that you and your son have more in common than you think." She looks hurt at what I said and I regret saying it. I scoff again, not meaning to. What is wrong with me?

   "He's not ready to see me?" I feel anger starting to bubble up inside me and my skin starts to get hot, considering it is below freezing outside. My legs start to move toward the stairs, and I don't even realize it until I'm standing in front of his door. She tries to stop me from going up, but I am already at the top. What will I say if he's in here? What will he do when he sees me? I can't get my hand to to turn the knob. I put my ear up to the door and hear footsteps moving around.

   I gather up the courage and open the door. And when I look up, my breathing stops, my heart skips a beat and I freeze.

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Hey guys sorry it's so short and I'm extra sorry it sucks. I think this might be my worst chapter yet. This was a hard chapter to make because I wasn't sure what should happen and everything that I come up with sucks, so I'm not sure I'm going to be able to continue this story, it's really hard to write anymore chapters. So let me know in the comments what you thought of it, it's okay to be truthful, I know it sucks. And don't forget to vote and add. Thanks for everything!!