(Discontinued) Helping? Donna Benevinto x reader (fem)

I'm So Tired

"You're joking..right?" I looked at Donna for reassurance, she shook her head. I tear up. "You've gotta be joking...there's no way." My voice breaks through each word. I want to die, I feel sick on my stomach and feel like throwing up. "Y/n.." Donna holds my hand. She looks up at Lady Dimitrescu. "Can you give us a minute?" Lady Dimitrescu nods and walks out, closing the door behind her.

I immediately break down, hugging Donna. "It's okay.. you're safe.. nothing is going to hurt you.. I'm here." She says very gently. She puts her hand on my head. "There's no way..there's no way I killed her.." I choke up on my words as I keep talking. "Kid calm down. You're going to be okay. We'll all get through this together even if we're upset and feel like dying."

'Your only saying that because your life is at risk if I die. You're pathetic.'

I must've had a disgusted look on my face. "What's that face for?" Donna asked. "Nothing." I drop my face. "Why are you so upset? You know what she did to you." I sniffle. "I know but I feel horrible, what's going to happen to you and the rest of the lords- I-" she grabbed my face and rubbed my tears away. "Us and the rest of the lords will be fine. She was a horrible person, she deserved what happened to her, she never cared about us, all she wanted was her daughter back and used us as test subjects, killing my sister in the process. I could never forgive her for it. Killing my sister led to my downfall, after she was dead my parents jumped off the waterfall. I was alone and all I had was Angie. I locked myself away. I was naive enough to go to Miranda for help. All I got was pain. I will never forgive her even if she is dead. She caused so much pain for us and the rest of the lords I can't even explain it all. Poor Moreau certainly got the worst of it, all he wanted was to be accepted by her after what she turned him into. She wasn't human, she had no sympathy, all she wanted was for her and her daughter to rule the world with no consequences. Though she was foolish enough to think that. So you don't need to feel bad, love. She wasn't human and needed to go." I was sobbing. "I didn't know your sister died- your family- I'm so sorry. I shouldve-" Donna shook her head. "There's no need, dear, all I want is for you to be safe and not have a worry in the world."

"Well I worry about you! That's one worry you can't get rid of!" she chuckled, and shook her head and kissed me. We heard crying in the room, and we saw Lady Dimitrescu balling her eyes out. "Oh dear, I didn't mean to interrupt, it's just so sweet!" I just looked back at Donna and shook my head. "Hey, didn't Donna tell you to leave?" Lady Dimitrescu popped up. "Well yes, I-" she tried to explain herself but it just wasn't working.

A few days later

"Ughhh, Donna I'm tired of sitting in bed!" I whined to Donna. "I know just a few more minutes and we'll be out of here." I raised my eyebrow. "What." She turned to me. "Oh, nobody told you?" I scoff "no." she chuckled. "Well no need to get sassy about it. We are leaving today, but you'll need crutches for a little while. Since the paralyzation doesn't seem to be lifting up on your leg." She walks over with a pair of crutches. "Okay! Have you ever used crutches before?" I chuckle "no.. sorry I don't wanna be a pain in the ass."

"You're not going to be." She taught me how to use them and I felt dumb because they are very simple. "I already got your things packed." I raised an eyebrow "we're leaving?" She chuckled. "Yes I forgot to tell you that to didn't I?"

"Yeah you did." she chuckled, "I'm sorry. We are going on a vacation. It's a surprise."

"Man, I was just about to ask where we were going. I hate when you do that."

"When I do what?"

"You like, read my mind or something."

"Oooohhhhh, I read your mind"

"Stop it, you're making yourself look goofy" She chuckled and helped me get out of the door.

The ride home was quiet, Angie was exceptionally quiet. I decided to leave her alone. Who knows what's going on inside that head of hers. We had to make that pit stop at Heisenberg's factory, we didn't stay long enough to talk to him. I looked out the window. I noticed that today was brighter in the village. Normally there's no color, dead grass, no leaves on the trees. But it seems to have changed since I've slept for 2 months. It seems spring is arising and I don't think I have any shorts, maybe one pair but that's it.

We got to the house and the garden looked horrible. Overgrown weeds and just one type of flower that Donna seems to keep around. I want to work on it but my leg is going to be a problem. Definitely a problem. I mean if I break it I won't feel it- or I don't think so anyway. I don't know much about body paralysis. I zoned out for a little while. Letting myself be flooded by my thoughts. "What's the matter, love?" Donna said, breaking the silence. "Huh? Oh! Nothing, I was just thinking." She raised an eyebrow. "What were you thinking about exactly?" I had a thought. Yes. It was that kind of thought. I felt my face heat up. Donna looked at me, though it took her a second she realized. "Oh..? Just "thinking" are we?" I smiled nervously. She got up from her seat and cupped my face with her hand. Her hands are abnormally cold, I shiver slightly. "Whatever you're thinking right now, I don't like it.." I said, hesitating. She squinted her eyes at me. "Are you sure?" There was silence for a moment. "...no..?"  she scoffed. "Your face is red, and I assumed..well..I would like too." She smiled innocently. "The only thing about that is, uhm.. I think you've forgotten I'm partly paralyzed." Donna said something under her breath. "Motherfucker" is what she said. I laughed a little. "What are you laughing about?"

"Nothing."

"Oh- you heard me." I cackled. Donna's face turned red immediately. "You weren't meant to hear that."

"Oh, I know, that's what makes it funny." She cleared her throat and got serious again. "Back to the topic at hand..when do you think we could?" I shrugged "wherever this goes away. What day is it, come to think of it?" Angie came around the corner. "Tuesday!" I chuckled. "Thanks."  I looked up at the clock. "Is it really 5:30?" Donna nodded. "Well fuck. I'm already tired." I stood up and grabbed my crutches. I gave Donna a hug and whispered in her ear. "If I really wanted to..I could've topped you easily. I'd be more careful with your words, at least for now." She shivered and I hobbled off with my crutches up stairs. "goddamn stairs." I grumbled as I got upstairs. I laid down on my side of the bed and closed my eyes.

My head was abnormally quiet. It didn't say anything. Now that I think of it, it hasn't talked since I woke up.

'Hey, are you there...?'

"..."

No answer. I asked again. A different voice answered, a deeper one. "Hello! I'm so sorry for the interruption but what you call "it" has a name, we all do."

'Hold on.."we"? There more of you?'

"Yes, unfortunately, most of us ended up with you. The rest ended up dead."

'Oh. I'm sorry for whoever you lost.'

"Anyway, we all have names. I'm Ictrest. The one you normally talk to is Zinth. I'm pretty sure there's two more here but they just haven't shown themselves yet. You'll get to see what we all look like soon, just as long as they show themselves."

'Thanks for letting me know. What pronouns do you go by, by the way?'

"I go by they/them while Zinth goes by he/him. Thank you for being considerate."

'No problem, but can I sleep now? I'm extremely tired.'

"Of course, your body is tired."

Just like that, I was out like a light.