Harry's POV*
I was screwed. Never in my life did i think I'd be stuck in a situation like this. When it came to woman, i always got what i wanted and exactly when i wanted it but this.....this was different and it was certainly pissing me. she was pissing me off. I bet she knew exactly what she was doing to me, she was just playing it off as if she didn't have a clue. Using her adorable baby like face to make my heart stop, her hourglass framed figure to secretly seduce me and using her innocents to make me stay away. God knows she pisses me off to the max on a daily basis and i can at least control it, but this, she took it to far. She knows that there was a time in my life when i was addicted to sex and pills, she knows how i abused woman i dated in the past, she knows i have the rarest form of anger issues, she knows I'm not so gentle when it comes to sex but what she doesn't know is that i wanted her, and i always got what i wanted.
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I stared at her through my eyelashes as she drank from her strawberry smoothie, i watched in awe as her full rose colored lips wrapped around the very tip of the straw and drew from it. This simple action made a strong tingly feeling smart in my stomach and rest in my manhood. For a moment i imagined those same lips working a against me while i tugged on the beautiful locks of hair on her head. I groaned and shook my head in attempt to shake the dirty thoughts from my head, if i kept thinking like this I'd be taking her by force.
"Can we go to the mall today?" She finally spoke looking up at me with her big bright eyes, they were surrounded with thick, long, dark lashes. Beautiful.
"I thought you weren't the shopping type" I said to her plainly. I couldn't be one to show emotion especially in this state, no matter how much i wanted her......i can't let my old self take over. She's to good for that. She's had a very difficult life she doesn't need her roommate having sexual fantasies about her, bad enough i scare her half to death.
"I'm not but Louis birthday is soon and i need to go Christmas shopping" she answered now looking down at her plate. She's been quite with me all day due to me yelling at her this morning because I found her bed empty. I broke into panic when i found that she wasn't lying there. When i don't know were she is i feel so weak, as if i can't protect her from all the monsters and bad guys who want to tie her to a bed and have there way with her, I'm guilty for being one of them.
"Didn't you shop with Eleanor and Sophia last week?" I leaned in pressing my elbows to the table.
"Yes but i forgot about a few people"
"You came back with tones of things! Who else is there?" I asked pulling my brows together. This simple action made her fear that i was getting ready to throw fit, with means i wouldn't like her answer.
"my family" I knew exactly what she meant by that. I leaned into the table more giving her a glare. She quietly broke eye contact with me and slumped back in her seat, I could tell just by looking at her that she was grateful the table was separating us, all i wanted to do was throw it.
"No" I growled at her.
"He's family!"
"I said no!"
"you could do a lot of things to me and you may have control of me in most situations but your limited to my kindness towards people, especially when it comes to family" she said. Her words were harsh and strong but i could tell by the way she made quick eye contact with me every few seconds, she didn't want me to get angry.
"you call him family? family doesn't do those things-"
"well sadly he's all I have! I only have my mom my stepfather and him! not one of them loves me and the last thing that your ganna do is tell me who i can or can not do a nice gesture for even if they've been nothing but cruel to me" she pulled her eyebrows together and tighten her facial features. Even now, in her attempt to look intimidating she still looked damn adorable. This anger i felt a second ago vanished as i studied her face. I loved how she crinkled her little noes, she usually did this when we were studying a bit for our collage coarse in February and she got confused.
"fine, i wont stop you you from buying those bastards presents" i gave in. i saw a slight smile form on her face, did she really think it was ganna be that easy?
"but you have to mail it, your not stopping by the house"
"Harry-"
"Bella, you don't live there anymore! you have no reason over there!" I cut her off before she could continue. she let out a frustrated huff not daring to argue, she knew that in a way i was right.
"there is a place where i don't feel alone
there is a place were i feel at home"
Bella sang along with the music playing on the radio, it was 'To build a home by cinematic orchestra' the song was absolutely beautiful with such a strong meaning. Bella's taste in music defines who she is, one of the many things that make her great.
"I want that tattooed" Bella broke me out of my train of thought.
"what?"
"that line in the song, i want it tattooed" she repeated.
"you want more tattoo's?" i asked rasing my brow, i didn't think she was really into them.
"of course! i want one with a feather but it has to be supper creative, and i want a dream catcher, and i want and anchor and maybe a compass" she told me, my eyes widen at all the creative tattoos she just named, they just of meet something to her, what confused me was the compass.
"why the compass?" I asked as we pulled into the lot of the mall.
"my dad had one"
"thought you hated him" I parked in lot and turned to her for her response. She had a bitter sweet looked on her face but she smiled through it as if she was covering up weakness. she slightly smiled at me and reached for the door nob of the car but before she pulled in she replied
"i do, but he was the first person to ever love me and also the last"
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