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Chapter 20

-January-

I listened to what was going on outside my bedroom. I listened to Harry's laughs and Ashley's giggles, they made my heart sink into the pit of my tummy. I thought this girl was supposed to be a one night stand, I thought she was just a toy for the night but then she began showing up more. Harry never sees the same woman twice, its always do and ditch with him, so why was he still seeing this girl? Every time he brought her back or left to go see her this rush of pain and sadness took over me.

Gosh she was just so pretty! She was absolutely flawless with her golden locks and her slim figure, her eyes were this pale blue that complemented her toned skin, she kind of reminded me of summer because she was bright and beautiful.

It was to bad her outside beauty didn't reflect on her insides. She was so nasty to me! I didn't even give her a reason not to like me. She would say mean things like "is that cookie really worth eating?" or something like "I didn't know they made jeans that big!" and you want to know something else? She would say these rude things in front of Harry and he never told her she was out of line, all he did was smirk.

I kind of put this on myself though, that Christmas night when Harry and I had an argument, I never got around to saying sorry. Did I have to? Even if I didn't it would be the right thing to do but the thing is its been a while. I know he's still angry with me which is probably why he lets Ashley say rude things to me. We haven't been seeing much of each other, Harry and I. We've been out and about doing our separate things, sometimes we would see each other in the morning but we never spoke a word. I felt like a stranger to him but wanna know what good came out of him ignoring me? Not one day since Christmas had I made him angry.

I was seated on my bed with my knees brought up to my chest, my arms kept them in place as my chin rested on them. Like this I sat just staring into space. I reminded myself of the times Harry actually wanted me with him, like the night I had that horrid dream about him hurting me, I remembered how we cuddled and he begged me to mess with his hair till he fell asleep. Now he has someone else to cuddle with. Now he won't even talk to me or even acknowledge my presents. It hurt more than I wanted it to. I stayed in this position for a while longer just to kill time, when I began to get a cramp I loosened myself and crawled off of bed. I walked to my window seeing that it was pouring, the streets looked grey but that didn't stop people from being out and about, it rains way to much here in London.

I retrieved my phone from my night stand and saw that I had a missed phone call from my mum, I didn't call back.

I was hungry, so hungry but was it worth going out there only to be showered with rude insults by Harry and his slut? was it? It was nearly lunch and I was already killing myself by skipping breakfast. I decided it was in my best interest if I ignored whatever they had to say to me and go eat something before I pass out. I thought about putting on some pants but decided not to, I had a large warm blush blue sweater that stopped a few inches above my knees, my woman parts were covered, thats all that matters. I slipped thick socks on my feet before taking a hair tie with me along with my phone, with the hair tie resting on my wrist and my phone in hand I drew in a deep breath. I stepped out my room closing it behind me, the click of the door echoed throughout the living area which caused Harry's head to snap in my direction. He was seated on the couch with his little slut cuddled close next to him, she was dressed in his clothing telling me that she stayed the night. She was to busy flipping through channels to notice my entrance but I was grateful, but Harry, he just continued to stare at me with a look that looked familiar. He would look at me this way when I did something unexpected like hug him or touch his hair or when we where very close together, so close that personal space was imaginary. I looked back at him giving him a weak smile, he looked surprised at my action but smiled back showcasing his beautiful dimples. Butterfly's tickled my tummy due to his smile, my smile grew a little bigger at the sight of his. When he saw this his eyes twinkled. In that moment everything was perfect though I knew it wouldn't last long and I stood correct. Ashely's attention turned to me who was smiling at her boyfriend, thing is he was smiling back. She didn't look to happy which caused me to awkwardly clear my throat and look away from Harry.