𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 4.

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"So, how are you? Still mad at me?" Y/N asked while munching her sandwich.

They're now on the rooftop, eating and talking. Nayeon excused her and Y/N to their professors so they could talk.

But deep inside her, she just wants to be with Y/N for the day.

"I am not mad at you in the first place." Nayeon whispered while hanging her head low.

Y/N just chuckled before holding her chin up, "look at me when you talk, Nabong-ah."

Nayeon became red when their faces are just 1 meter apart. She could feel Y/N's hot breath on her mouth and with just one push, their lips would touch.

"M-move away!" Nayeon pushed her away and stood up, hearing Y/N giggle behind her.

"Come on, you're blushing because of me!" Nayeon just ignored her and let her tease her.

"Yah, Nayeon-ah?"

"Hmm?"

"You are so gorgeous, you know that?" Oh, here she comes again... Nayeon thought.

"I know that of course—"

"Then did someone tell you you're the most gorgeous girl in the world?"

Oh, shoot will you please stop... Nayeon mentally sighed.

"Yup of course!"

"Then, it's probably me." Nayeon secretly rolled her eyes at Y/N's conceitedness.

"Shut up, you moron."

"Then sit down and shut me up." Come on! Nayeon groaned.

"Aish! You and you're inappropriate words!"

"Hey... they aren't inappropriate if they make you blush, my love— ouch hey!" Y/N groaned when Nayeon slapped her arm.

"Stop calling me my love. I told you, we aren't together." Y/N clicked her tongue. "Then answer me so we can be together."

"It's not that easy when I don't like you! Why can't you understand that for once?! I don't like you and will never do!" Nayeon blurted out.

Y/N just looked at her and smiled weakly. "It's still her, isn't it?" She asked in a hushed tone.

"What are you say—"

"Jeongyeon unnie. It's still her who you love, right?" There was a long silence between us until Nayeon spoke.

"Let's forget it—"

"I can't." Y/N cut her off once again, "if it's easy for you to forget all the things you say to me then I don't. They stab me to death, Nayeon. They stab my chest and keep staying in my head that you will never gonna love me the way you love her." A tear left her eye.

"And I just need to accept the fact that I will never be part of those people you love. I will just gonna be one of those people who keep loving you even though they're hurting." Y/N wiped her tears and smiled.

"After all these years, I know I will never be like her. I know I will never be on her level. I accepted that a long time ago but heck, it still hurts." A sob left her mouth, making Nayeon swallow thickly as if something is blocking her chest.

"It still hurts because I thought that you'll love me too. I thought that one day, you'll face me and say that you love me too but the opposite happened." Y/N sniffed, "it always be."

Nayeon just stayed silent. She doesn't know what to say or what to do because Y/N is hurting because of her.

"This. What is this for you, Nayeon-ah? Because for me, I feel like we're having lunch as a couple. Earlier, were you jealous or did you just want someone to accompany you? It's confusing me! Your acts confused me! And I hate myself for always falling onto those confusing actions that you do and being left hurting again and again." Y/N bit her lips, tears pouring on her cheeks.

"Y/N..."

"What are you gonna say? Let's forget this? What? Let's move on? How could you say that easily? Because you don't feel the same? Nayeon, I am a human too! I have a fucking feelings too!" Y/N clenched her teeth while muttering those words.

"I... you know in the first place that I make us clear already, right? I told you, not me. Don't like me because you'll just be hurt. Be considerate to me as well—"

"Stop."

Y/N stood up and wiped her skirt. She wiped her tears and fixed her loose tie. Everything she feels right now is too much to handle.

"I understand what you say, no need to repeat them. Don't worry because this will be the last. You don't have to shoo me away, you don't have to see me again because I will be the one who'll avoid you. I'm sorry for disturbing your life and I'm sorry..." she smiled painfully.

"I'm sorry because this fucking idiot fell in love with you."

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