𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 9.

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"Somi-ah, she hurt me again. I don't know how can I handle her. I don't know anymore." Y/N continuously sobbed on Somi's shirt.

They're here at Somi's apartment, drinking beer. Y/N went here after she saw Nayeon and Jeongyeon kissing in Nayeon's car.

She felt hurt and betrayed.

After what she's done. After how she loved her and gave anything to her, this is all she's got.

She didn't bother to go to her friends' house because for sure, they'll just gonna tell her to talk together or something.

She's tired of hearing it.

"Let it all out, Y/N-ah. I'm here for you." Somi rubbed her back as Y/N sobbed and sobbed.

"I gave anything she wants! I gave anything, I gave my fucking self but heck, it wasn't enough! It was all not enough to her!" Y/N shouted painfully.

"She shouldn't have been with me if she still loves her, Somi-ah. She shouldn't..." Y/N keep mumbling before she fell asleep in Somi's arms.

The next day, Nayeon was mad at Y/N because she didn't come home. Nayeon keep shouting at her but Y/N was just staring at nothing. She couldn't even feel herself anymore.

"Are you listening to me, Lee Y/N?!" Y/N looked up at her lover blankly. Nayeon pulled her hair in anger before groaning.

"She likes you! She damn likes you and yet you slept in her house! How reckless could you be, huh?! Aren't you aware of how I'd feel when I saw you in her arms?! Are you?! What you did is an exact example of cheating!"

Y/N just swallowed thickly. Tears started to brim her eyes as she wiped them instantly which Nayeon had noticed.

"How about you, Nayeon-ah? Is this all about you? How about my feelings?" Y/N spoke.

"When you were kissing her in your car, did you remember that you have me who's waiting for you in our house?" Nayeon went silent.

"When you were being happy with her, did you remember that you have me, trying my best to make you happy? You didn't, right?" Y/N clenched her jaws.

"You're accusing me of cheating because of what? I seek help? You all left me alone! I had no choice because my friends—our friends are with you! They are siding you!" Nayeon looked away to wipe her tears.

"What about me, Nayeon-ah? You have them all already. No one's left here with me but Somi. Somi who helped me, She was there when you weren't. Somi became my best friend when you all left me alone!" Y/N yelled while looking at Nayeon full of hatred.

Nayeon felt hurt. Whenever she looks at Y/N's eyes, they always shine brightly whenever she looks at her. But now they're full of hatred, pain, and exhaustion.

"You could've just rejected me again that time when I ask you to be mine. Fuck! You could've just rejected me if you're just gonna hurt me like this too." Y/N stood up and walked towards Nayeon.

"Because right now, I'm fucking tired. I'm fucking tired of always swallowing my pride. I'm fucking tired of always seeing you cheat on me. I'm fucking tired of these bullshits happening in my life." With one last tear left her eyes.

"I'm tired of fighting and keep fighting for you. I'm tired, Nayeon-ah. So let me go and have your life with Jeongyeon. 'Cause I don't care anymore." Y/N wiped her tears.

"Those days you cheated on me, the more hatred I feel towards you."

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Nayeon's POV

A tear left my eye when I remembered the scene of how Y/N left our house and suddenly vanished in South Korea.

We couldn't contact her because she blocked us, even on social media so we couldn't do anything but respect her time.

After that, all of our friends got mad at me. Especially Lisa since she and Y/N are the closest ones among the rest. They were like twins.

I know it's my fault why this is happening to us. I became reckless and impulsive in my acts, ending up hurting her a lot of times. I also took her for granted because I was so complacent that she loves me so much.

But now, all I could feel is her hatred toward me.

It hurts. It hurts to look at her eyes to find the old shine whenever she looks at me but it's all hatred. I could also feel that she regretted loving me.

"You're crying, Nayeon-ah."

I heard Jennie say and handed me a tissue. I smiled and take it before wiping my tears.

"It just so damn hurts, Jen. We all know it's my fault why she became like this and earlier, I hurt her again." A sob left my mouth.

"I saw hatred in her eyes. I saw how she looked at me full of hatred and it hurts so much, Jennie. It hurts how we changed just in a snap because of stupidity." I buried my face in my palms, feeling Jennie's hand rubbing my back.

"It's okay, Nayeon-ah. I know one-day Y/N would forgive us too."

"What if she doesn't?" I muttered, "what if she doesn't forgive us? Forgive me? What if she leaves us again? What if she falls in love with someone else?" I breathed out.

"Jennie I don't know what to do. I kept overthinking since she left me and now she came back, there's a lot of what-ifs again in my damn mind. I don't know what to do, heck, I don't know how to win her back again." Jennie sighed and nodded in understanding.

"I understand you, unnie. We cannot do anything as well since Y/N hates all of us. We know we did a mistake and we're owning it. We just have to respect her time for a while." She said, I just sighed and nodded.

"I guess so, Nini. I just hope that one day, she'll come back to me again. I hope for once, she loves me again. I hope she forgives me."

"Let's just hope, unnie."

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