I'm Broken (completed)

6

It's been a few weeks or so since that whole incident of me wanting Happy to fuck me like those men had done when they abused and rapped me. Since I've fallen madly in love with Happy.

Last week I had gotten Happy's crow on my lower back. where people consider it a tramp stamp. It has its wings open with his first name on one side of its head and his last on the other. the crow looks like paint splatter. which I like cause Happy is an artist in more ways than one so it's a representation of him.

I'm much more comfortable around him. and me getting comfortable around the others is a work in progress but it's happening. now I still freak out every now and then when someone touches me cause my mind goes back to those dark times of my life.

I've started helping Gemma out at the garage so she'd have much more time with her grandbaby.

Happy had asked me to move into his place that he's gotten recently.  Which did so and I've helped him decorate as simple as I could that would suit us both. 

I've asked Happy to train me to fight or show me a place where I could learn. and I've been training at Sloppies boxing ring facility with Happy every since.

Now here I am trying to think of a way to thank Happy for being so loving and gentle with me. for being extremely faithful and not fucking around on me when I know he's got a serious case of blue balls.

I mean I've thought plenty of giving him head to help him and to thank him. I'm just scared that I'll freak out if he grabs my hair and fucks my throat.  Though of course, I'd explain everything to him.

After finally deciding on what I am gonna do I finished up work and let Chucky take over for the rest of the day while I headed into the clubhouse and checked the food to see what I could work with. when I didn't see much I made a list of what I could use and what they'd need before I walked out.

I whistled gathering everyone's attention.

"I'm doing a store run, so make a list of what everyone needs and give it to me. if you want to put in on it that will work just put your money in an envelope and hand it over" I tell them

While everyone was doing that Happy came up to me and I wrapped my arms around him. I removed his toothpick.

"I have something for you later when w go home" I tell him

He just looks at me before he nodded than kissed me.

"love you" he whispered

"love you too baby" I replied back

"I'll see if JT doesn't mind me coming with you" he says

"ok. I'll enjoy the company" I tell him while smiling

"He smirked before pecking my lips then took his toothpick back.I smiled as he walked over to JT and talked with him while everyone that needed something came over with what they needed and their money.

I put it all in my purse before I walked over to Happy.

"Can you?" I asked taking JT's list and money

"Yea" he says

"lets go than" I say taking hold of his hand and walked out.

"Hey Gemma you need anything from the store?" I asked

"yea one second," she says before she grabs a piece of paper and wrote what she needed then handed me some money.

"we'll be back soon" I tell

"have fun" she says while smiling as she carries Abel's carrier inside

"we will ma "Happy says

The whole shopping trip was entertaining and something I thought was a bit out of a rom-com movie. but I've never seen one with a sexy tattooed biker. so this was my own live version and I'm glad to live it with him.

When we got back I handed everyone their items along with their change. After they all thanked me they scurried off while I unloaded the items I was getting for the food I was gonna make and some other items.

"Here take him he's annoying" someone said shoving a screaming Abel into me arems.
'he's baby ,he isn't suppose to know whats happening and he's probably hungry" I say as I took him and walked off grabbing his diaper bag. I took him to a empty room to check his butt before I changed him then I grabbed his bottle.

"its ok little dude, you just had a dirty butt nothing to be upset about." I talk to him as I walked back and warmed up his bottle then got him situated in the baby sling I found in his bag.

Once he was positioned in the sling that was like a papoose I started on the food I was gonna make.

When that was cooking I walked off to the corner and sat there with Abel in my arms as he fed before I burped him and hummed a little lullby to him.

"thank you" Jax says

"welcome" I replied

he carefully took Abel as I handed him the sling and bottle.

"I had changed his butt, and fed him." I tell him

He nodded while smiling then walked off with his baby.

"you alright?" Happy asked

"yea. I was just enjoying that" I tell him

"what watching Abel?" he asked

"uh-hu. he's so tiny and so cheerful when he's not got a dirty butt" I replied

He chuckled at that before he walked over and wrapped his arms around me. not saying anything after that.