A Love so Painful | XiaoVen angst fanfic

To the very end, I love you

It was Xiao's time to leave, his eyes were drowsy and swollen from all the crying. Just as he thought his crying ended, it suddenly rained. Did the world really have to be this cruel to him at all times, the rain reminded him of Venti and how he would always drag him onto the rain, oh how he misses his smile. Just a week ago they were running around under the rain, and now even at their parting, it rained.

For the first time Xiao hated the rain, Xiao hated how it felt like Venti. And also for once, Xiao believed that memories under the rain do last longer, this day was surely something he couldn't forget. He's all alone again, the flowers in his heart withered, nowhere to go, and most importantly, Venti was no longer in his life.

The band club room was empty and was filled with Venti's scent, the world didn't give Venti the chance to shine brighter than everybody else. The world was cruel, Xiao wanted to scream and shout, everything felt like Venti, everything reminded him of Venti, because Venti was everything to him. Now he's lost his everything.

Xiao kept playing even though it was painful, the song, the piano, the band club room, everything screamed Venti. It drove Xiao insane everything felt like Venti, he missed Venti, he long for his touch, his warmth, him.

It was painful for Xiao, to be standing on the stage Venti dreamed to be on.

"You're watching me right Venti?.."

"The time finally came, we're finally standing in this stage, in front of thousands of people who will remember you and your song"

"Watch me, look at me, for the last time"

Tears fell on the piano as he played, the music sounds the same as how Venti played it, but Venti wasn't the one playing, it was him. And it made him crumble into pieces, it felt different, Venti's playing felt like spring flowers bloomed while Xiao's playing felt like the autumn season, leaves dying and letting go.

There was one wish Xiao couldn't reach for Venti, and it was to forget him. Xiao couldn't even if he spent his whole life trying, Xiao couldn't love again,

"Even if death seperated us, I will continue to love you and I will forever love you"

I wish to walk between life and death with him, every second in my life, i wished to have him there, i wish to be with him, because he showed me what happiness and being loved felt like. He taught me how to be happy, and to love.

He was like the stars i try to reach, even if it was tearing me into pieces.

Venti painted my life with colors, and I painted his. My life was his canvas, and he was the painter.

Venti was the key to the cage i was trapped in all my life, but now he's gone.