Huge TW on this one. Its pretty heavy. (TW: suicide, self-harm)
-Deklan
January 8, I reset all my progress from getting better.
January 11, I considered suicide.
If I cant help other people then what is the point of me staying here?
I already failed, no point in trying again.
These were all thoughts in my head.
January 12, my friend saved me from almost committing suicide.
I had the plan, the times, I was ready.
She was talking to me, just us two. It's a normal conversation that we usually have but this time it felt different. It felt less light-hearted and more...real.
Don't get me wrong, all our conversations feel real but this one was different.
This was the 5th time I've planned suicide,
This is the 5th time I didn't do it.
January 13, I tried to get better.
I tried yes but I did not feel useful, the attempt was unsuccessful.
I feel the need to work like a robot, helping only others, not myself.
Change is slow, it takes time.
Consider letting change have a go before you do something you regret.
YOU ARE READING
The Song of Whispers
Poetrya collection of poems written by me and my friends. TW: suicide, self-harm, EDs, Grooming, Rape, and topics similar. I am not responsible for anything that might happen to you during or after you read this. You have been warned.
