Randomness Book 4

college

so finally, a good-ish post lol. today, i went to my community college and signed up for classes :) i was a dual enrollment student, so i was already taking college classes during my time in high school. since my classes were through this college, i only had to do a change of programs rather than resign/register for college again.

but anyway. i went to this advising event today with a friend. i talked to a counselor and got everything i need to do done. classes are good to go, i already have access to my account, and i know what classes i need to take for the future like spring and the year after. and then i'll transfer to a university :,) im scared, but it's okay.

all of my classes are online, which i kind of regret. i wanted at least one in person one because i wanted to make friends and stuff, but i'm not good with people anyway, so it's okay. it's only for the fall semester, and then i can change if i want to. this is just a setting in period, i guess you can call it.

i feel less stressed though. im still scared, but less stress is always good. im not worrying about how i find classes to take or wondering if they'll transfer to the university.

once college starts, i'll make a new book. im pretty sure this book has held my entire high school career minus freshman year. so. kinda crazy lmao. but i wanna start fresh, so a new spam book sounds nice, even if i don't post much. it'll still be something.

i'm kind of nervous that school will take up all of my time. i don't want to forget wattpad or anything like that. it's my home. i'm going to be a full time student, so four classes are going to be beating the fuck out of me. i'll try stocking up on books or chapters this summer, but i can't promise anything. i kind of doubt i'll have any trouble with wattpad, but it still makes me anxious.

but yeah. go school. i'm still terrified out of my mind for graduation because then everything will all become real. college classes aren't new to me since i've been taking them for two years, but leaving high school completely really scares me. i want to leave, but i don't. i have people around me that i know. of course, some friends are going to the community college, but it won't be the same. especially that i'm online for the first semester. i keep wondering if i can change it, but im too scared to do that.

i feel like i have so many worries lmao. i have so many plans for different things, and i've barely done anything to actually complete them. like grad party? nothing is planned except the date and the few people i've invited. graduation hair and makeup? no clue. prom shit? i have my outfit, but idk what i'm doing for my hair and makeup. across the state trip with my friend? haven't planned anything except the state and city.

and then on top of all that is work. i'm glad i'm only working two days a week, but it still takes a lot out of me. plus they only schedule me on busy days, and busy days are the fucking worst in summer. the kitchen gets so hot and we get so busy.

ugh. i feel busy, but then i lay around all day. it's annoying. i need to start doing stuff.

i'll write it down. my week this week until saturday is free besides school.

okay, i wrote the list of things to do in my calendar for tomorrow and friday. makes me feel somewhat better. i'm gonna go work on a book now. bye bye and thanks for listening about my issues <3