How we met??

Chapter 14 :: Back to Delhi..

After 7 days....

It is around 10 in the evening...
I am back to Delhi.... i have informed none about my arrival and i booked a cab to our home ...

And i reached there and rang the bell and Disha opened the door and a smile make its way on her face and she hugged me tightly....

Kessi haii???( she asked while separating, she doesn't know my past but she has a idea that I don't have a nice relations with my family)

Achi..(i said with a fake smile)

Kya halat ki hai tune apni...(she asked and I didn't reacted to her line)

Sunnn... me nikal rahi huu... tu dhyaan rakhnaa... khana bana hua haii tu kha lena....(she said and i nodded)

Aarya kaha haii???(i asked)

Woh aaj subhe 8 bhaje hi nikal gayi kuch urgent kaam aagaya thaa.teri scooty leke gayi haii..... (she said)

Or Shrawani kal aajayegii...(she said)

Tu humaare phone kyu nahi utha rahi thi....(she asked)

Busy thi...(i said not meeting her gaze)

Tu rest karle...me jaati huu ...(she said and went and i closed the door)

I went in my room... I stripped off my clothes and went in my bathroom for a hot shower....

Hot water falling on my bare skin , tears running down my eyes.... i feel pathetic .....my body full of bruises

And i fell on my knees my hands covering my face and i am crying my eyes out.....

the only people i need around me right now is Shrawani and Aarya ... i need Shrawani's warmth , i need Aarya's consoling words ..... i need them but i can not call them or i can tell them what I'm going through.... They also know what I'm going through, they called me many times but I didn't answered their calls as i dont want to interupt their work....

I feel pathetic.... i feel bad... in proper words I feel like a piece of shit...

Water is turning cold and my hands are pruning , so i got up and began washing my body and started rubbing my body with luffa so vigorously in anger that my skin has turned red and the water falling on it gives a burning sensation... so i kept the luffa back and at last closed my eyes feeling the water again , and my arms are burning.....

with closed eyes old but newest memory which add up in my bad memories flashing back and I instantly open my eyes and now i get out of the shower and i take my towel wrap it around my body and i go towards the mirror.....

Wiping the fog from the mirror and i look at my face .... eyes puffy and dark circles because of not sleeping from last 7 days and due to crying too.... my cheeks not as chubby as they were before..... in last 7 days my appearance have changed like anything.... New bruises are formed on my stomach , arms , chest area and legs too.....

The body which healed in last 3 years is back to its miserable state.... i hate myself.... i just started loving myself even though it was just 10% and i again hate myself.....

Mirror again started fogging up and i dont want to see myself again and i enter my room and go towards the cupboard and take out a full sleeved tee shirt and full length pyjamas.... so that I don't have too see the bruises.... and i feel hungry as i have not eaten anything in last 10 hours ,neither did i eat the food offered in the flight...

And i enter the kitchen and have the food which Disha made aand after eating it , i go back in my room and lay on my bed and my phone rings and i see Aarya's name flashed on the screen but i put my phone on silent and i keep it back on the bed beside me....