The Swan goddess

Chapter 15: The talk

Freya's POV
It's been three weeks since Loki and I arrived back from Asgard and since then we've been avoiding each other. Despite living on the same floor we've been pretty successful so far.

Today Thor is returning to Asgard and he's decided to speak with me about my relationship with Loki before he leaves.

"Little sister, I understand that your marriage to my brother was not ideal or the original plan, but I would like for you to give him a chance" Thor said as we were both seat on my floor's living room couch. I had a cup of tea on hand and I hadn't changed out of my lazy day clothes.

I sighed and set my cup on a coaster on the coffee table and turned back to Thor "I want to give him a chance, but if I'm being honest I don't know what I'm doing or if I can even love him as a husband" I said "I've never been in a relationship as I was too busy with studying and training and I've only ever had romantic feelings for one person" Thor frowns and nods understandingly.

"I know that it's all very complicated and confusing and......awkward, but I'm sure that if you two just talked you could come to an understanding" Thor tried to say encouragingly. I weakly smiled and said "Fine, I'll speak with him" Thor's face lights up and he cheers out "Wonderful! Please if he gives you any trouble tell Heimdall to send me!" I chuckled and agreed.

~~~timeskip~~~
After Thor left I walked to the towers library, where Loki spends most of his time reading nonfiction, historical, and mythology books.

I walked to the second floor and found him reading ideally at the small chair and table nook. He glanced up and jumped startled before closing his book and getting up to leave, but he froze when I placed my hand on his forearm. He hesitatingly sat back down and I sat across from him.

I took a deep breath and said "We need to talk about .......us" he looked at me warily and nodded "This situation isn't ideal, but we can't keep avoiding each other like this. What happens when we're on a mission together? We stand as far away from each other as possible?" I asked him and Loki sighed before admitting "I was trying to give you space to allow you to adjust to all this. I do care for you, Freya, I am your husband in some sense and I want to help you in anyway I can but..... I honestly don't know what to do or how you're feeling" I nodded and said "I don't know if I can love you as my husband."

Loki deflates slightly but nods in understanding. Knowing that he's thinking awful things about himself I decided to clarify "I've only ever loved one person romantically I've never courted anyone or anything like that. This is all new to me and if I'm being honest..... I wasn't expecting all this to happen so fast. I just wanted to wait and meet some people then I wanted to marry someone....." "Someone that you love" Loki said with a sad smile as he looked down at the table seemingly reminiscing something.

I tilted my head slightly and asked "What?" He looked back up at me and asked "Who did you love?" I stared at him before averting my gaze to the table "It was Kaecilius. I developed feelings for him when I was 14, but because of my age....." "He dismissed you?" I nodded and looked up at Loki "Have you ever loved anyone like that?" Loki stared at me silently for a few moments before answering "No. I haven't" I nodded accepting his answer before standing up and saying "I'm going to go cook dinner. Finished up what you're doing here and meet me on our floor" Loki stared at me curiously and asked "Why?"

I looked at him and gave him a soft smile "Because we're going to try being friends first then decide what we want to do with our relationship" I then turned around and went back to my floor. I climbed onto the counter and opened the cabinets above the refrigerator where I stashed my cook books and proceeded to pull one out. After picking a recipe I gathered the ingredients and started cooking for me and Loki with a small smile on my face.