The Swan goddess

Chapter 20: The lovers

Freya's POV
I was bawling into my hands at the kitchen bar when cool arms wrapped around me and the scent of old books and herbal tea engulfed me.

I looked up and saw Loki's concerned face "Freya? Hey, hey shh what's happened hmm? What's wrong?" He asked worriedly. I pulled away from him and he stared at me with a hurt expression before turning, but I grabbed his wrist startling him "Why is it that every time there's any sort of tension between us you just walk away?" I asked in a raspy voice and sniffle "You can't just leave, Loki, and I can't go to you every time. We need to sit down and talk about things, and you need to meet me halfway."

Loki stared at me and hesitates before sitting down. He fiddles with his fingers and says "I'm sorry for kissing you, and for the things I said-" "Don't apologize for any of that. I don't want you to apologize or regret that" I cut him off he looks at me curiously and asks "Then what do you want?" I sigh and look at him after wiping a stray tear from my eye "To explain" he looks at me confused " 'To explain?' "

I began "You do realize that my first kiss was our wedding day, right?" He blinks as realization enters his eyes "So when I kissed you last night...." I nodded and continued "I panicked because I didn't know how to kiss you back. I wasn't sure if I should pull away and ask, or if I should try to figure it out by myself, or if I should just hug you because that's the one form of affection that I know of aside from holding hands. Then you pulled away and I panicked even more because I saw that you were thinking that I rejected you and you just left" Loki's eyes filled with regret and I decided to confess my feelings.

"I wasn't upset or disappointed by the kiss.... I was actually overjoyed" I admitted with a blush "Overjoyed?" Loki asked with a bashful, hopeful look. I exhaled and decided to just get it over with "A couple weeks ago I noticed that there was a change in my feelings..... towards you" I swallowed as he stared at me with those beautiful intense eyes "I started feeling the same things that I felt for Kaecilius..... but they were slightly different" I began to anxiously chew on my lip making Loki reach out and gently remove it from between my teeth and whispered questioningly "Different how?" I stared into his eyes and said "When I'm with you I don't get butterflies like with Kaecilius, I just feel warm and fuzzy all over and I'm just......I feel so happy and safe and when I look at you all the insecurities and the sadness fades away and I get this.....nostalgia....it's like-"

Loki cuts me off and says "Like I'm home again after being lost for a very long time" I nod in agreement.

It's silent for a moment as we sit there. The feelings are out in the open and are hanging around us like like mist from a shower before I spoke up again and softly said "If you want to kiss me again Loki then you'll have to teach me...." Loki smiled and said "Just gently press against my lips and when I lick your lips open them" he explains before carefully tucking a strand of hair behind my ear and leaning towards me to carefully kiss my lips.

I did as instructed and carefully, timidly moved my lips against his feeling my heart race as it threatens to leap out of my chest and towards him. He pulls away for a second and I'm about to ask what I did wrong when he says "You're doing so well. Just be more confident and show me your passion, pet" I nodded happy that I'm doing it pretty well. Loki presses his lips against mine again and I do the same with a little bit more force this time around. I wrap my arms around his neck and bury my fingers into his hair making him moan into the kiss before licking my lower lip.

Remembering his instructions from before I part my lips and get startled when his tongue enters my mouth. He quickly pulls back and chuckles "Sorry, I should've warned you" my face is full on vermilion by now and is probably blending into my hair by now "I-it's fine...." He then asks "Do you want to continue or-" I cut him off by breathlessly saying "Oh gods yes" I then pull him into me and kiss him.