Your Second Option | Haikyuu Fanfic

Starting Over

I know I'll never be part of your life and your happiness again. But I'm still here loving you, Tsumu.

The big day arrived.

Osamu and his family were at the field they'd rented for the wedding, setting everything up and reviewing the small details that were left while the grooms got ready.

Sakusa arrived earlier than Atsumu, wanting to see if everything was in order with the decoration, the food and the upcoming party in the vintage house a few meters away from the field.

Everyone was inside the house when Sakusa came in, Osamu's family welcoming him with warm hugs and big smiles.

Inevitably, Osamu had to greet him, which made his stomach churn at the mere contact of that awkward handshake.

It's been more than four years since they last saw each other, but what Osamu felt for him was practically intact.

"Congratulations, Sakusa", Osamu said rather weakly.

"Thank you", the raven head answered, uneasy to see him there, thinking about how badly Atsumu would react if he saw him.

They'd talked about that possibility, Atsumu knowing that his mother wouldn't allow his absence, and the blond agreed to let his presence pass for the time being, but he still wouldn't talk to him. Just thinking about seeing Osamu again made Atsumu clench his jaw and shake a bit from anger.

As for Sakusa, seeing him again made his self hatred stronger, feeling that horrible wound opening.

He began to walk away, when Osamu spoke.

"Sakusa... C-Can I...", he stuttered. Just speaking to him seemed too much, too painful. But he had to let this out, so his conscience could be somewhat calmer. "Can I talk to you... In private?".

Kiyoomi's eyes widened, worried and clueless of Osamu's intentions.

He hesitated but ended up nodding, and Osamu began to walk to a far room, making sure that no one was around.

Once there, he locked the room and faced his forbidden love, taking a deep breath and gathering courage to let everything he was feeling out,
once and for all.

"Sakusa... I know... Neither of you wanted me here today... And I know you definitely don't wanna talk to me ever again, but... I just... Need to tell you something...".

Kiyoomi began to fidget with his fingers at the sight of Osamu's face filled with sorrow.

"When... When you asked me to... Pretend to be him... I... Didn't agree because of my recent breakup back then... Nor the money for my restaurant... I... Wanted to let you know the real reason... If not, I just...
Won't be able to live with myself...".

Tears began to gather in his eyes, trying his best to get past the lump in his throat to talk.

"Sakusa... I... Betrayed my brother out of selfishness... Because I...", he stopped to look him in the eyes. "Because I loved you".