Olivia Rain (#wattys2016)

Chapter 29 ✔

"Why are you a acting like this?" He asks me once were in my house on the couch and alone. "Promise me you won't break up with me after I tell you." I suddenly feel like he would break up with me if he knew like the thought of what I was and how I had been would repulse him. "Promise. " He says and I take a deep breath.

"When my mother was alive I was very....uh well reckless and rebellious. I always got in fights I've been in 15 different schools since fifth grade. I'm not sure what brought it out but, it was probably every time my father would beat my mum in front of me. It was hard and I could never look away unless I wanted the same punishment.

As I got older it was harder for him to keep me under control eventually he used restraints like handcuffs and rope. I almost killed him a couple times. I had been on anger meds and had counselling. But I never told anyone what was really happening.

I probably need to get back on those meds they honestly made me better more relaxed less tense. All day when I didn't have them I would be tense and paranoid and ready for anything. I ended up punching one of my best friends because he grabbed my shoulder. It was bad and it kind of still is but, it's been kinda dormant for awhile."

I look at Jake as I lay in his lap now. He looks slightly shocked and a little afraid. "Wow. That's like wow I did not see that coming. I still want to be with you trust me but, I think I have someone that can help." Jake gets up taking me with him and goes to the front door. He looks back at me and smiles I smile back and go to him.

We slowly make our way over to Jake's house. "What are we doing here? " Jake smiles evilly before walking in and taking me with him. "Jake honey is that you?" I hear a feminine voice say from his kitchen. Must be his mom. "Yeah mom." He says and we walk to the kitchen. I feel slightly nervous being in the same room as Jake's mom. "Mom we kinda need your help."

His mother turns towards us. She's stunning with black hair curled slightly down her back high cheek bones clear skin wearing a beautiful sun dress and dish gloves. "What for hun and who's this lovely lady?" She asks Jake takes my hand intertwining our fingers. "This is Liv she's my girlfriend and she needs your psychiatric help."

His mother looks at him skeptically before turning to me and holding her hand out. "Hi Liv my names Janet Baxter or Dr. Baxter I don't mind. What seems to be your problem?" She asks me while leading me into the living room. She takes off her gloves and sits across from me in a chair looking expectantly at me.

"I have anger issues that I can't seem to control. It's makes me tense and hyper aware. I now when to scream and yell and when not to but, it's like my body won't listen to my brain." I say as Jake sits next to me. His mother nods before talking. "Have you taken any anger medication before?" I nod my head and she says something I didn't think any one would ever say.

"Stupid fucking bitch just die." Instantly rage fills my body and I'm getting up and trying to run to her but, Jake holds me back all I see is red how dare she say that? Fucking psychotic bitch. She's just wanting a death wish. "Okay Olivia concentrate and count down from twenty." Her voice is calm and almost soothing but, I'm to worked up to try anything she says but, deep down I know I don't want to hurt her so instead I take a deep breath and count down from twenty.

"That's it relax. " I relax and soon I'm no longer angry. "So Olivia do you get blackouts often or is it when your extremely mad?" I nod and she smiles at me. "Well there's nothing I can do unless we get you an appointment at my office. "

"Yeah that would be fine." I say and Jake nods "When?" "How about in an hour. " I look to Jake seeing if she's serious when I see that he's not smiling or smirking I agree immediately. "Okay Jake show her where it is and I'll meet you guys there. "

An hour later I'm laying on one of those psychiatric beds that are red and slightly reclined. Mrs. Baxter is asking questions. Even questions about my childhood which I have to say was pretty decent. "When you moved here what was it like, what did you experience? "

"It started out good but, then something in my father snapped and he went crazy. Started to beat me when something bad happened. Threatened to kill me if I said anything to anyone. I got quieter more reserved and less outspoken. Eventually I had to tell and the cops got involved and there was a trial and they went away to the big house last weekend. Now my anger and my old attitude is coming back." Throughout the whole thing she's been taking notes but, you can see the hint of unshead tears in her eyes.

She sniffels before looking back at me. "You've had a rough life Olivia and I'm sorry. The medication usually given to anger management kids is usually Celexa or Prozac. But, I suggest other methods like cognitive behavioral therapy or possible writing in a journal even just talking to Jake. I am going to recommend that you come see me twice a week for the next couple weeks and we'll work on the behavior. Sound like a plan?"

I nod my head only slightly dissapointed that I can't have something to mellow me out. "Okay I'll see you Tuesday and Thursday next week. Goodbye Olivia."

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