"Stevie..."
"Come on wake up baby, open your eyes" he gently shook her shoulders
"Linds..." was all she could say before she broke into tears and threw herself into his chest
"What happened?"
"I had a...nightmare" her voice was muffed from being against his skin
"I know that much, you were crying and shaking what happened?" he pulled back and brushed her hair out of her face
"I told you about the baby, but instead of the reaction you did have..." she smiled briefly at the thought then frowned again to continue "You told me that you didn't want the baby and...and..." tears came again
"Honey what?" he didn't know what could have happened in her dream that made her so broken
"You told me that the best idea for me would be to have an abortion to terminate our baby" Stevie watched as the pain spread across his face but then he hid it quickly
"Well..." Lindsey flipped her over onto her back and pulled the covers back so he could move down her, he lifted her top up and kissed her very small but still visible bump
"I would never ever tell you to go and get rid of our baby Steph, you know that, remember the first time? The very first time?" Stevie nodded at him and moved her fingers through his curls
"You told me that you thought it would be better for us to wait and for you to you know...and what did I say to you in return?" they looked each other in the eyes and he waited for her answer his question
"You said that it didn't matter if you had nothing else, but if you had me and our baby...you could conquer the world" they both smiled and shared silent tears at their very first heartbreaking loss
"Now you think you can go back to sleep?" Lindsey asked after a little while of comfortable silence
"Yeah as long as you hold me"
"I'll always hold you Steph"
They pulled the covers back up and Stevie snuggled back into Lindsey's arms which he wrapped around her and rested a hand protectively over their unborn child
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"Daddddddddddy" Lindsey cracked open an eye the next morning, wishing he could sleep some more
"Daddddddddyyyyyy" he could feel his daughter bouncing on his legs on the bed, Lily stopped and bent down to look at Lindsey, she sighed and gave up, but just before she could move Lindsey grabbed her and pulled her down on the bed and tickled her
"Daddy, stop...arrrrrrrhhhh tickles daddy" he loved the sound of his daughters giggle and tried to get it out of her as much as he could
"Well you shouldn't wake me up then should you" he joined in the laughing now and then just pulled her next to him and felt her snuggle into his side
"Mommy sent me"
"Did she now?"
"Yeah, she said fooooooood daddy, foooood!"
"Seriously you are always hungry child!" He laughed when she thought then nodded at him "I guess mommy should get tickled then too" he loved the excited expression on Lily's face
"Right come on then, let's go!" Lindsey got up off the bed and held out his hands for Lily
"Turtle shell daddy..." Lily laughed as her father mock sighed then turned around and waited for her; she jumped on his back and wrapped her arms around his neck
"Daddy?" She spoke when they were walking down the stairs
"Yeah baby?"
"I love you!" he felt her squeeze him and he moved her round so she was on his front now
"I love you to, so much!" he kissed her hair and carried on walking
These were the moments that Lindsey cherished, moments like this with his precious children
Thank you so much for reading, I hope you enjoyed this update, and thank you so much for all of your lovely comments, they inspire me to continue! xo
