Forever Always Mine (Natasha Romanoff x Reader)

part. eighteen

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Y/n pov
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Natasha kissed me all over my face, I tried to push away with no luck, and I kept trying. I ended up successfully pushing away from her.

"Enough with the kissing, now sleep," I said, pushing her back at her bed. She was lying on the bed as I crawled in next to her, and I put the covers over us.

"Y/n I'm thirsty, my throat Is dry" she whispered, I kissed her on her beautiful forehead and walked out of bed not realising I was in Bra and Panties I walked out of her room and down to the kitchen.

I reached the kitchen where everyone else was watching a movie in the living room not far away from me.
All eyes got laid on me as I opened the fridge, which had 'STARK' written all over it, self obsessed man just saying.

"Y/n is that Natasha's underwear?" I heard a voice say, I grabbed a water bottle and turned around to Wanda looking curious at me.

"Yes, before you say anything, no, we did not do it," I said pissed by the fact I didn't even take on a shirt.

"We-" Wanda began, "No, I rented her clothes cause the ones in my room are currently in Budapest." I cut her off, but at that moment, I realised something.
"Wait, Wanda, how do you know this is Natasha's underwear? Actually, I don't care, bye," i said and walked away.

As I reached Natasha's room I knocked light on her door and walked in right after, I handed her the Water bottle and laid back next to slowly drifting off to sleep since I didn't got that much the last couple days.

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I was training with all the other widows
We were shooting at a picture of a body.
I was the first one down as always, I walked out of the room and straight to one of the training rooms where I could train with one of the big guys.

The guy started to fight me, but I had him pinned down in less than 10 minutes.
Suddenly, another guy made an attack from behind he was choking me, but I quickly got him down, too.

Every big guy was down when I was done but then came the next widows, which was Yelena. She looked around and started laughing.

"Wanna take a fight," I asked nicely. She nodded as we started to fight, I had her pinned down so long that I won.

I helped her up from the floor.
We both looked toward the door, where we saw a widow figure approaching.

The widow came in pretty shaken. We all sat down trying to catch out breath.
"One of the girls missed and shot another one. She died from the bullet," the widow spoke up.

"Let me guess it was one of the young girls right" Yelena laughed out, and the widow nodded with a grin on her face.
I zoned out by thinking about the time when I nearly shot Natasha at training.

As I snapped back to reality, I saw Yelena and the widow still talking  together, not even realising I was zoned out, I left quickly after that to find my ballet clothes. I changed and walked down to the ballet room.

As I was training with a bunch of other girls I saw Natasha's grown body outside the class, I lost focus and missed a step but quickly focused again.

Natasha approached me and made me come into a room, I didn't know what was happening until she pulled out a gun.

I quickly kicked the gun out of her hand, but she got it back and shot me right in my forehead.
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I woke up breathing heavy, cold sweat dripping down my body, I looked next to me and saw Natasha still sleeping peacefully, thankfully.

I slowly made my way out of bed and found the shirt and the shorts I never got to take on before I fell asleep and walked slowly out the door with no sound.

I took on the shirt and shorts as I walked around trying to localise a sound, but it was quiet, really quiet.
I walked to my room but as soon as I came inside and the door closed I broke down crying.

I slapped myself to pull myself together, as nothing worked, and I had multiple red marks i found my only solution.
A 5 dollar bill and a white pill, I laid the pill under the 5 dollar bill and crushed it.

I made the now so powder form a line, then I began sniffing it . Afterer a few minut, I felt nothing at all.

I was told when I bought them , that they were only if I had a really, really bad day. The nothingness I felt was kinda satisfying, I had no worries, no happiness, no sadness, no fear, no emotion.  I could get used to that feeling.

A/n:  I had a plan with bringing drugs in for a long time, like since is tarted the book so yeah.

Please, if you're doing drugs, get help it's gonna feel so much better if you get help. Love you all ❤❤