The missing piece

Chapter 6

Rowan's pov

We were sitting on the bed with Alexander and Joe was trying to calm him down from his panic attack. I know Alexander is in good hands because Joe went through the same thing when we were younger. To this day I still don't know how he got through them alone. I only found out he was having panic attacks when we were hanging out at his house and he noticed he forgot to do the dishes and his parents were going to be home soon.

I can't believe I never noticed how shitty his parents were. Well to be honest I was pretty busy with my dad trying to train me to be the perfect Don, but I still regret not picking up on it earlier, I was supposed to be observant and I wasn't. That's why I trained my self to pick up on little details about everyone I meet. As a Don that's one of the most important qualities to have and if I'm not a good Don I won't be able to protect the people I care about and I'm not gonna let that happen.

I was snapped out of my thought when I felt Alexander move towards the window. He started pacing back and forth. I don't want him freaking out again so I called his name.
"Alexander?"
"Mhm?" He answered but I know he wasn't listening. I needed to keep my dominant side in check. He doesn't know about our life style yet and he isn't ours yet. But I needed him to listen to me. "Alexander." This time with a little more dominance in my voice just so he would stop pacing.

"What?!" For now I will let that slide but he will have to learn that we don't raise our voices at each other.
So I walked up close to him so I could get his attention. That's when he almost bumped in to me. When he looked up at me he instantly looked down. I had to suppress my smirk, this is not the time.

Alexander started to take a step back. "Oh my god, I-I'm so s-sorry. Please I-I won't do it again. I didn't mean to!"
He rose his hands to block his face. I clenched my fists, not because I'm mad at him but because I'm mad at the people who hurt him.
I slowly lifted my hands and wrapped them around his small wrists. I gently pulled them away from his face, that gave me the chance to put my hand on his cheek and wipe away the tears.

"Alexander, look at me." I wasn't leaving any room for discussion. He slowly lifted his head and our eyes met. I won't lie he has one of the most beautiful green eyes I have ever seen. But I needed to stay focused, what's important right now is that he's ok.
"Are you alright?" He nodded his head. "Words baby." It took him a second but he answered. "Y-Yes"

"Now, are you gonna tell me why you were pacing?" I noticed I was still holding his face in my hand so I slowly stepped back to give him some space. Disappointment flashed through his eyes but he covered it up real quick.
"I-I just...I" he seemed frustrated and confused. I don't blame him. This is all very sudden.

"It's ok you can take your time and think we just don't want you to freak yourself out ok?" I'm glad Matt said something. So far each time he said something to Alexander, it calmed him down.

"C-Could I get some t-time alone?" I wasn't surprised that he wanted to be alone and think but I'm not going to lie and say that didn't hurt a little. "Yes of course. We will be in the living room. If you need anything call us, we'll be right there." So Joe, Matt and I went downstairs to give him some space.

We sat on the couch and just looked at each other. I for one couldn't believe we found him. It's been years of trying and being disappointed, I finally feel like there is nothing missing.
"So how are you guys feeling?" Matt answered instantly. "I'm so excited! He's here, he's actually here!" It's so cute how excited he gets. I couldn't help but smile, but then I looked over to Joe. He seemed lost in thought, like he couldn't get something out of his head.

"Joe, angel are you alright?" He slowly looked up at me and I instantly knew something was wrong.
"Did you see the look on his face? He looked horrified. We are the people that are supposed to bring him joy and make him feel calm. But we didn't, we scared him. He looked at us like...like."

"Like you looked at you parents." I finished for him. I didn't think this would bring up so many emotions. He rarely speaks about his parents anymore and he always said he feels numb about them now.
"Angel come here." Joe slowly walked up to me and was going to sit next to me but I pulled him on to my lap. I put my hands under his shirt and started rubbing his back. "Joe you are not them and never will be. I know you think you will." He looked at me surprised. "I see it in your face sometimes that you believe you will become them, but do you know how I know you won't? Because you are the most caring and considerate person I have ever met." "Hey! What about me?!" Matt pouted.
"Yes you too Matt." That made Joe laugh. This is why I'm glad I have these two. They balance each other out and of course Matt always lightens the mood.

I looked back at Joe. "We will show him how he's supposed to be treated and how Love actually looks like. And don't ever think you're like your parents, you hear me?"
"Yes, sir." Oh now he's just teasing me. I smirk at him and slowly raise my hand under his shirt to his bare chest. I was about to tease him back when we heard footsteps going down the stairs. I pulled back and Joe got off my lap. Matt came over to me and Joe and sat beside me. We were all looking at the end of the stair when we saw Alexander. He seemed worried and uneasy.

"C-Can we talk?"

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That's it for today. Hope you liked it!!