The missing piece

Chapter 12

Alexander's pov

Right now Joseph, Matt, Rowan and I are in the car on the way to go to Stefan's place. I don't know what's going to happen but what I do know is, is that I want this over with. In two days school starts again and I can go back to my old routine, with a few exceptions of course. I mean a lot has surprisingly changed, the last couple of days.

Back to the car ride. For the past twenty minutes it has been silent. I don't know what to say to Rowan after what happened last night.

Flashback

"I really want to kiss you right know."

"Why don't you?" Rowan couldn't believe what he was hearing. And Alex couldn't believe that that came out of his mouth.

The silence Alexander grown to be comfortable with took over them and out of embarrassment he wanted to take back what he had said but before he could do so, he felt soft pair of lips against his.

Instinctively he wrapped his arm around Rowan's neck while at the same time Rowan's hands wondered down to Alexander's hips. Their lips were in sync, only stopping when catching their breath.

Once Rowan bit on Alexander's lip and a moan escaped, he started to unknowingly rock his hips. His hands went up to Rowan's hair to give it a slight tug resulting in a low grunt.

That snapped Alex out of it. He realized what was happening and he practically jumped off of Rowan's lap. It's not that he regretted it it's just that it felt like he was making Rowan betray the other's. He didn't know exactly what is was but he felt like he did something wrong. They weren't in a relationship yet so he didn't have the right to kiss him right? At least that's what he thought.
He was feeling too much at once.

On the other hand Rowan thought he himself overstepped the boundaries and started to apologize.
"Alexander, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have done that." He said he was going to give him time and here he was kissing him the first chance he got and he felt terrible for making Alexander feel this way.

"C-Could you leave?" Rowan's heart practically broke. He thought he ruined everything.
"Wait Alexander. Let us talk about it. I'm sorry." Rowan reached out to grab Alexander's hand but he stepped away.

"P-Please?" Alexander felt horrible for sending him away but he didn't know what else to do. He had to think about what happened. He didn't know if he was overwhelmed by the feeling Rowan gave him or the fact that he made a man kiss him that has boyfriends or if the only reason he was being kissed was because Rowan thought he had to. This is why Alex doesn't 100% like the concept of the tattoos. Does Rowan really like him or is he just doing all of this because they are soulmates? He was simply panicking.

"Ok I'll leave." Rowan felt like he made the biggest mistake of his life. What was he going to tell the other's?

End of flashback

So here we are. I wish I hadn't sent him away. I wish I would've talked to him. I don't know what he told Matt and Joseph but I haven't really talked to them either.

Right now I have to focus on the problem at hand, Stefan. We just pulled up to his place and I already just want go to Ben's and just catch up with him and Sage. I just want to forget about yesterday and what's about to come.

I got out of the car and started to walk to the entrance.
"Alexander what are you doing?" This is the first time Rowan said something to me today.

"W-What?" I thought they knew why we were here.
"You are not going in there alone."
"I have to." I need to do this for myself. I need to stand up to him by myself.