The Secrets of Sarah Smith

Goodbye

n this chapter deals indepth of Sarah's stillborn son its not overly important to the over all plot so you can skip it if you need to. its also really quite long sorry

written in memory of my beautiful baby girl in heaven. Fly high princess love and miss you forever and for all babies gone too soon xxxxxxxx

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It was late around 11pm and pitch black 16 year old Sarah was walking down an old country road wearing a pair of trainers that were a size too small and had holes in the soles, jeans that were also too small a long sleeved top and a thin coat. Over her shoulder was a black backpack with the only things she now owned. 2 changes of clothes and a pair of jammies all of which were too small. A picture frame with a picture of her and her gran just before she died a few years before and her note book and pen as well as a torch.

She'd ran away from home after an argument with her mum earlier that day and was now left wondering the country side after walking for hours to get out of the city. she was tempted to find a barn to sleep for the night out of the cold not that it was overly cold it was the start of July but it was cold enough to make Sarah shiver slightly.

A sharp pain tore through Sarah's stomach and she bent over in two and cried out in shock after a minute or so it wore off and Sarah gingerly set off again into a near by field in hopes of finding a barn. She hadn't gone far when the pain returned again this time it was worse Sarah fell to her knees onto the grass. The pain came and gone for an hour getting worse each time before Sarah felt a popping sensation and her pants and jeans became soaked. panic had well and truly set in at this stage and she'd no idea what was going on. The pain came almost constantly now. She suddenly felt the need to push and instinct took over as her body started pushing She could feel something coming out and pressing against her jeans. She somehow managed to get them off before her body gave a huge push and a large hard and squishy round thing came out it was pitch black and Sarah could barely see anything but she knew straight away what it was. The pain shot threw her again as she pushed one more time and the baby came out Sarah reached down and pulled the baby up.

Babies were meant to cry when they were born right? This one made no noise Sarah cuddled the baby into her but The babies body was limb. Sarah reached into her bag and pulled out the torch shinning the light on the baby, she seen he was a boy and he wasn't breathing. Sarah's eyes filled up with tears as she genitally shook the baby willing him to breathe. The tears flowed freely down her cheeks as she saw a bright light appear in the middle of the field about 20 feet away from her.

Carefully Sarah stood up cradling the baby close to her and headed towards the light to get help. The light dissapeared a few seconds later but she kept going towards were it had been using her torch to light the way. She got a few feet away from were the light had been when she heard a small babies cry. Her heart skipped a beat as she looked down at the limp body in her arms willing it to have been him and she wasn't just imagining it but it wasn't, the baby in her arms stayed silent and still. Sarah fell to her knees for the second time that night and cried. She almost didn't hear the small babies cry again. She looked around her and just were she'd seen the light she spotted a small bundle laying on the grass.

Slowly Sarah walked towards the bundle still cradling her son in one arm and holding the torch. When she got close she seen the bundle was a small newborn baby crying softly. Shock and panic hit Sarah. what was a new born baby doing laying in a field? Sarah tried lifting the crying baby but couldn't do it with her baby in her arms too so she very genitally and with a sob placed her baby down on the grass and picked the crying baby up. Sarah took off her coat and wrapped the baby up in it before walking off to find help for them both. as soon as Sarah had picked up The crying newborn the silent baby was erased from her memory.

Sarah awkwardly with the now sleeping baby wrapped in her coat in one arm put on a pair of jeans from her bag before setting off. She knew she needed to get help for both her and the baby, They couldn't wait out here till morning the baby wouldn't survive the cold. Sarah walked and walked her body becoming weaker and weaker with every step but the small bundle in her arms kept her going. She needed to find him help, He was her son and he needed her.

Sarah had walked for 3 miles before coming across a house despite being exhausted and feeling very ill Sarah smiled as soon as she saw it. With more determination than before Sarah picked up her pace and went as fast as she could towards the house. She knocked on the door as soon as she reached it and to her surprise it was answered quite quickly by a kind looking woman.

"Help us" Sarah whispered before handing the woman her baby and collapsing on the floor.

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Sarah woke with a start and sat up in the bed. A bed? how did she get into a bed? she wondered to herself.

"Wow its ok its ok" Clara soothed from beside her "Your in The TARDIS"

"I'm in bed! how did I get in a bed?" Sarah mumbled putting a hand to her head which had started to throb.

"You collapsed, The Doctor carried you to one of the spare rooms. Here he left some painkillers and water for you" Clara explained genitally handing Sarah a glass of water and 2 paracetamol tablets.

Sarah gladly took them her head was pounding now and the light in the room was hurting it even more. Just as Sarah had thought that the lights dimmed down helping Sarah's headache a little

"I think she's feeling bad for what she did" Clara whispered softly so she didn't hurt Sarah's head. the memory came flooding back to Sarah well almost she couldn't remember what was said just the TARDIS had used her to talk to The Doctor.

Sarah's eyes fell too the black velvet box sitting on the dresser opposite the bed. She got up of the bed nearly falling back down from still feeling dizzy but carried on anyway and lifted the lid of the box, taking out the hat and blanket. Suddenly it all clicked into place for her and she ran out of the bedroom and towards the console room not even questioning how she knew the way.

"Doctor!" Sarah shouted as she burst into the console room.

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