Jealousy, Jealousy || Max Verstappen

Get Lost to Find Yourself

"Want some?" I showed the red wine bottle standing on the counter.

"Yeah," and with his request, I poured for him too.

Around 5 AM this morning, we had arrived to France, and to my family house in the Alps after I got the keys from our neighbours here. My parents knew I was here but they didn't know that I was with Max. As long as the neighbours didn't expose me, we were gonna be just fine.

After arriving and unpacking, we had decided to go to the nearest supermarket to do some grocery shopping which we successfully managed to do so but Max on the other hand was getting easily recognised and I had to take pictures of him with the fans in the middle of the supermarket. I wasn't complaining but I was slightly scared of the possible rumours.

Back at the house, after my offer of cooking the dinner together, I didn't feel uncomfortable for the first time. I just mentally couldn't be bothered to see the point of being so heartless with no emotions. I let go.

Hearing my phone ringing, I read the name on the screen and I knew Max, next to me was able to read it clearly as well. "Hello?" I answered it to prevent the ringing sound becoming more annoying.

"What happened to replying to my messages once in a while so that I know you're alive?" I had 0 interest in checking messages from anyone in the past week however.

"Sorry Mick, I've been busy I didn't see it." I used a cold voice tone because I was nowhere near comfortable speaking to Mick next to Max.

"How you been doing anyway? Your mum said you were in Paris, want me to join you?-"

"NO!" I yelled to the phone and drew Max's attention on mine more. "No, I mean, umm, I'll be back very soon, so no need."

"Ok... chill, I was just asking,"

"Yeah I know Mick anyway, I need to go now.." I heard him say some goodbye words but didn't listen and ended the call.

Looking back at Max's face I couldn't read anything and didn't know how to restart a conversation. "I wonder if he thinks he's your boyfriend." He did it for me.

"Please don't start this nonsense again," I wasn't gonna get into this topic again. I felt already guilty about lying straight to his face but also I wasn't letting my guards down just to have another argument. "Let's go to the hot tub outside, come on," I held his hand for the first time in my life and dragged him after me.

"If you get sick and blame me for it, I won't take any responsibility." He said watching me get rid of my sweater and leggings. I didn't feel shy, standing in my underwear next to him, in fact I felt more confident. On the other hand, I felt shy looking at his half naked body, it felt like I was doing something I wasn't allowed.

"Hold my hand," I requested from him as I put a foot inside the water.

Goosebumps did spread all over my body when I felt his cold hands wrapping my waist, pulling me closer to his body before letting us both in the water. "Feels good, huh?"

"The water yes, you... not so much." I joked, knowing it would annoy him a little.

"I get frustrated over the fact that someone made you think you're funny." Mission accomplished, he sounded annoyed.

"The real frustration is that I got to see your face every day-"

I got cut off by the move and now there were only few centimetres between our faces, "Nice ladies like you shouldn't be lying."

"I never lie," To tease him from this perspective, I moved my eyes to his lips and back to his shining blue eyes in the dark.

He got the message or read my mind straight away that he put his soft and warm lips on mine but waited for me to take the control by reacting. It felt like we forgot how to share a kiss, it was our first time since god knows when. If I let it go, I knew the hunger in both of us come out to play but the missing part on a mental level was outweighing the hunger for his touch.