Jealousy, Jealousy || Max Verstappen

Te Amo

"Max, I, I know it's late to do this but I have to get it out." He kept the distance between us as I was mentally preparing myself to admit the feelings I never knew they existed. If things went wrong, I was ready to murder Charles and ban him from giving advice again. "I don't know if I have caused you any confusion but if so, it was because I was so terrified about what I'm gonna say now." I took the deepest breath possible, "I, I wanna be in love, I wanna be loved, I am no longer scared of it and this person apparently happened to be you Max. So now, laugh at me, call me weak, leave me alone here and never come back, I'm not at that point to care because I know, I now know so well that-"

"You love me?" He unexpectedly cut me off.

I stopped looking around and met his light blue eyes. "What?"

"Are you trying to say you love me?" He asked again with no possible emotions on his face. "I'm tryna make things easier for you."

"I, uhh- Max, I have no idea how love supposed to feel like but uhh, I feel something, I feel something taking over my brain, numbing it when you're around and god it feels awful to be weak but if that's what people call love, then yes." I still couldn't say it out loud to his face, why I was such a dumb human being.

"I have to tell you something," Were the words leaving his mouth, playing with my nerves. "What you saw back in my house, the lipstick stain or whatever, it isn't what you think it is."

"Excuse me?" Was this guy taking the piss out of my vulnerability.

"I brought someone home yes but I didn't sleep with anyone, I don't want you to think there's an apology to be made." How was he managing to feed his ego during these times was a big question but what I was hearing was another big question.

I couldn't help but yell this time, "Then why the hell you made me suffer for the entire month?! I honestly hate you so much, what's wrong with you?!"

"No you don't," He closed the distance by wrapping his hands around my waist. "You just admitted how much you love me."

"I didn't say that," There wasn't much space so I had to place my head on his wide chest slowly, "But I do, I do love you." I almost whispered, getting confidence since he couldn't see my face like that. "Is it wrong that I feel like this?"

"No," His chin was resting on top of my head, "Because I'm afraid I feel it too. Whatever that is, is killing me inside because it is so unknown to me. »

"Then why make us suffer for so long..." I may be sounding so desperate but I had no experience in admitting I was in love with someone.

"It was the only way for you to realise and decide," He was right. Yet, I'd prefer not so suffer each day for a month. However, if we weren't away from each other, maybe I'd have taken me many more months to realise how I was feeling towards him.

I noticed we were still in the middle of the street, not exactly an ideal place to admit feelings, "Can we go somewhere else, I feel like Charles is watching us from his big windows?"

"We put on a show for him, he should be thankful." Hands getting tighter on my waist, he lifted me up easily.

"I'm gonna fall Max!" I screamed out but he cut me off with an "Wrap your legs around me." I tried to do my best, listening to him since I had a dress on.

Few seconds later, I felt the cold metallic feeling on my back as he pressed my body on his car. Ignoring the shiver, he looked down at my face. I knew this look too well, been in this position too many times. One last look at his red lips, I pulled him from his neck and met our lips. The second I felt his lips on mine, my body felt on fire, blood getting pumped in my cheeks only, I gave him a slow but a meaningful kiss. There was no longer a point of rushing, it felt like a relief after all those months spent together, we had no reason to be quick. My heart was in his hands, it did belong to him, completely.