Music Shorts

#1

WDY NOW?

1st love, 1st crush - these words always fail. You usually can't engage with your 1st love or crush finally. But I did. Yes, I was so lucky and at the same time brave to do so.
When I met him for the 1st time, it was winter. The air was cold, brisk, the snowflakes falling faster. It's on the 1st day of my high school and I got crush on him at the first sight. He was looking like my prince charming wearing the school uniform.
I used to admire him from a far away. I never had the courage to confess myself. He was the most charming and decent boy I had ever seen then. He was always nice to everyone. I never had seen him fighting or bullying others. He was one of our topper list and I was a girl who usually not noticed by anyone until our school co-curriculum event. I gained a huge fame after my music performance. No one ever noticed this girl of their class can even sing. Whatever that boy also noticed me. This was all for me.
I still remember 1st time we talked. He acted smart and of course smartly asked me to perform in a program of his friend's family program. And I was the one who messed up all while taking. However, I wasn't interested performing in a private program until I knew he was also attending.
My luck!! At that party we danced even. I never got that much closed to him before. Not even any boy either. Those moments even still feel unreal.

After all these, we got more closer. From the friendship, our relationship went more further. We became more closer to eachother. The day he proposed me was awkward as hell. It was so embarrassing what I did that day. When he kneel down with a flower in his hand, I was screaming internally. But nothing comes in my life without a mess. I started to cry and ran from him out of nervousness.
Come on dude!!!!!!! Was I insane or something?! I always dreamt about this so why this scene?!!!
Though I apologized him later on text and also said that I also loved him and it was rom the day when we had first met. This was the starting. Later on we hugged for the first time. I lost my 1st kiss and virginity consequently. Everything was going completely fine.
But every love story has a villain. My mom and his aunt were the villains of our love story.

His aunt kicked him out from her house when she knew about our relationship. And my mom also forced me to stop contacting with him. But already I had given him my everything. There was no way I could move on from this relationship. And most importantly I loved him. but who understand us? All they acknowledged of was "underage".

I didn't leave his side. My boy had none without me I knew. His parents left him behind after they split. He barely lived with his tormenting aunty. How can I leave when he needed me the most and the reason for his this misery is me - I was not a coward. I loved him and I truly loved him. I'd prove it to the whole world. But the thing I didn't know is he didn't need me that a time.

He was already broken losing the shed above his head. Still he smiled to me. He hold my hands and told the words that I never wanted to hear.

It's been years. And we met again. He showed up in my show last night. At a glimpse I could recognize him. He didn't change a bit. His face remembered me everything that happened. How much I suffered after we said goodbye to each other, what he told that day, the time we spend together, the feeling I had for him. I was staring at him and realized my feeling hasn't changed slightly within these years. I didn't talk to him though I had the chance. It's because he really wasn't him.
I just wondered, isn't it the time? 'Now you finally got job you like. I'm making money off the song I write.' You told that we can engage again after we got this position. Yea! We are now on the position. Can't we just put our past in past tense?

I tried to move on. Try to get someone and 'some of them were real good guys.' 'But they aren't really like you though.'

I keep wondering if he is with someone and if I should care. But everything drives me crazy. I better think about us. The way laughed when I wore your faded t-shirt. Do you still laugh like that? I remember you used to sleep early and always scolded me for staying up late. It's 2'o clock. I wonder Wdy now?

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WDY NOW? by Sadie Jean is my recent favourite song. So I just think about to write on this.
Well, my this book would be filled with short stories regarding music. You can share me your recent favourite song and I'll try to write story adopting the meaning of the song.
Well a pinch of advice I'd like to give we can listen to the music while reading the chapter.

And yeah! I don't I'll misunderstood but still I don't belong this song or doing any advertising of this song. I just written cuz I love doing it. There's some lines which I have directly adopt from the song lyrics. I have used cursive font and (') marks to highlight that.
Don't get hyper.
That's all bye bye 👋