COMPLETE MESS M.G.C

i'm trying to apologize can you fucking listen

MICHAEL CLIFFORD

I'm annoyed, I don't know if towards myself or Kai.

To be honest, I did find her anger unnecessary; well, I don't think I really understood what she felt like.

I do have many friends, unlike her, not tryna be mean or anything but its the truth.

And don't get me wrong. I know I was an asshole, but I was stressed and my friends were giving me a hard time.

"Not an excuse." I've been telling myself that.

After I screamed at her, I wrote another song. But on my own, because I told the guys to leave.

"She sleeps alone. My heart wants to come home. I wish I was, I wish I was, beside you. She lies awake. I'm trying to find the words to say: ''I wish I was, I wish I was, beside you." That's something I came up with a few hours after she left.

I'm still in love with her. I just don't know how to control myself.

I went from trying to explain to her to just snapping, which wasn't fair.

But still, why was she so mad?

Some time later...

It's been about 3 weeks since the "fight" I had with Kaykay, which was practically one sided.

We haven't talked at all, I haven't even seen her at lunch at all.

I wonder what she's doing, who is she eating with? I hope she's not alone, I really do.

I should go find her.

"I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be back." I said quickly, excusing myself from the table and getting out of the cafeteria.

I've looked in almost every classroom on the first floor. I even asked some random girls if they had seen her but they told me they don't even know her so they were completely useless.

I know she's here, we have some classes together but of course she doesn't talk to me.

So I decided to go to the "art floor" which is the last one on the building.

She was in the instrument room. trying to play the guitar, she's not bad but she's not the best either.

I teached her the song she was playing which was "Green eyes" by Coldplay.

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"Come on Mikey teach me a song, please." She says stretching the e at the end and with a big smile.

I can't resist that beautiful smile.

"Well then, which song do you wanna learn?" I said with a grin on my lips. I would teach her a song of mine but she doesnt know I am a songwriter as well.

"I don't know," She says with a tiny pout on her pretty pink lips. "One that will remind me of you." She's so excited and cute I can't stand it.

"Oh! Do you know a song called Green eyes by any chance? You know because your eyes are green." Her eyes basically shine while she asks.

"I do indeed know a song called like that," I said with a little giggle. I found it sweet that she wants to remember me when she plays a song.

"It's actually by Coldplay."

She loves Coldplay.

Once I told her that, she takes my guitar in her hands and sits between my legs so I can teach her the chords and the strumming.