NEW LOVE

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Rolling over in my bed I feel something next to me 'No way I slept with someone' I jump up only to find one of my twins Paul yes I said twins we are triplets. Me Paris, Patrick and Paul we all live together we've always done everything together after the death of our parents we became everything to one another.

Looking at my brother he must of had a bad dream we are 20, we grew up with our aunt and uncle. We left soon as we could they're fucking monsters. Me being the oldest I always felt the need to protect my brothers I took a lot of beating and sexual assault to protect them.

I walk to the kitchen for a bowl of Apple Jacks cereal I hear the piano playing an upbeat melody me and my siblings are all musical gifted, also gifted in a lot of other things. I love fashion but I threw that dream away when I had to use all the money I saved to move me and my brothers away from that hell hold at 17.

After my shift at the bar yesterday I decided I needed something new just didn't know what.. In walks Patrick he's such a carefree soul he has a girlfriend he's been with since highschool she also lives with us.

"Grand rising sis" he says "grand rising Pat" yeah Pat made us stop saying goodmorning something about it being a spell, Patrick is spiritual we respect his practices. He takes a seat across from me he has this look on his face as if he did something and knew I wouldn't like it.

"What did you do this time Patrick?" I ask him he throws his hands up with a laugh "Nothing you won't love me for" I make a motion for him to continue as I eat "Uhm you know Catalaya Sanchez?"

Thinking that name sounds familiar ahh yes "She's a very well know fashion designer" and boy is she a beautiful human. 'Wait why is he bringing her up?' He sees the look on my face and smirk.

"You have a meeting with her Monday at 10am Yo..." my mouth drops open making my cereal fall out my mouth "dude close your mouth you damn dog" I laugh at him and let him finish

"you will be meeting her she loves your designs said she would love to work with you." Shocked doesn't even express what I feel tears fills my eyes "Than... thank you" I choke out I walk over to give him a hug.

Paul comes walking in rubbing the sleep out his eyes, looking at us lost to what's going on. I tell him and he jumps on me hugging me telling me congratulations, he's the youngest of us he's a big ass baby but I love him so much.

Leaving the kitchen to go get myself ready for my shift at the tattoo shop I'm also into art. Hopping in the shower I let the water cascade over my body looking down I notice my little buddy.

You see I'm definitely nothing like other girls I was born with a penis. From birth my mom told me she felt I wasn't a boy so they did test on me when I was a few days old turns out I'm intersex.

My parents taught me to love myself but after they died in a car accident that became hard especially after moving with my mom sister and husband. I see the scars on my body I wouldn't change it because I protected my brothers.

  Constantly being told I'm an abomination, I'm not normal I'll never find someone to love me the list goes on as I recall all the memories.

Choosing to focus on the news Patrick just gave me I wash up and get out, I dress myself in black skinny jeans with my Jordan 11's and a Tommy Hilfiger white tee.

I grab my locs and put them into a low pony tail looking in the mirror at my light Carmel skin I smiled showing my straight white teeth.

  I really am beautiful it's hard to love yourself when you've been taught to hate yourself since the age 12, I wonder will she find me attractive. 'Shit stop thinking like that you'll be working with the lady chill' I tell myself

  I don't have a car so I hop in the Uber and headed to work. Arriving I see I'll be working with Danay, she's always touchy with me I don't like her touch or anybody touch honestly.

Nobody knows about my little buddy down there I've never had sexual intercourse with anyone, I'm too scared they'll think I'm an abomination at least that's what I tell myself.