NEW LOVE

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Blood there was blood everywhere. I stood shocked, not able to process my sight. "We have to deliver her baby or he will die!" I hear my brother say. It's too early for the baby, she's losing too much blood.

I hear through my ear piece, everything is clear. I have them transport the kids to Laya. "We need a fucking doctor now!" I yell to whoever. I sit next to Loui holding her hand.

"You're going to be okay, we're going to get this little fella out and save both of you." She give me a weak smile, tighten her grip on my hand. "Ta-take care o-of him fo-for me" she chokes out.

With tears in my eyes, I shake my head viciously no. "Stop talking like that you're going to be okay I love you Lo" I sob out. Next thing I know she's screaming and pushing. They're tending to her wounds as she gives birth. The bleeding doesn't seem to stop.

My head is spinning, I've lost so much tonight. This has to be payback for everything I've done. This must be my punishment. "She's losing too much blood we can't stop this!" I feel helpless, I just hold her hand.

"Te-tell Laya thank you, tre-treat h-him as your so-son thank you Paris." With one last push we hear a beautiful cry. I can feel her hand loosen, I see her beautiful smile. I lean down placing a kiss on her forehead.

"Alexander Louis Sanchez-Scott he's yours now" he's places in her arms and she kisses him all over. Whispering into his ear, I see so much joy on her face. She's a wonderful mother already.

She hands him over to me. I'm hit with a million emotions when I look into her eyes. I see fear, love, peace and acceptance. "I love you Par, thank you best-friend than-" just than I hear the monitors go off. I knew that sound.

My heart broke into a billion pieces. I cried for myself; Alex my kids Catalaya and Isabella. The tears seem to never end. I held Alex tightly to my chest. She was supposed to be here. He needs his mom, he's all she ever wanted.

My brother dead body flashes through my mind. I cry even harder, I feel so incomplete. My brother who I protected with my life, just gone. My twin, this has to be a punishment. I knew no greater pain. I pressed a lingering kiss on her now cold body.

"I got him Lo I got him." With jello legs and weary eyes I make my way through the house. With a newborn baby and a heavy heart. We get into the car heading to the hospital. I get him checked out, he looks just like her.

His eyes, lips, nose it's as if I had no part of making him. I laugh to myself. "You're a beautiful boy, just like your mama she loved you so much" I choke out. I admire the boy in-front of me, he's truly beautiful.

I need to call her, she needs to know what happened. Pulling my phone out, my hands are shaking. Barely able to even dial her number. I sigh in frustration, I take a deep breathe trying again.

I heart her beautiful frantic voice. "Are you okay? Is everyone okay? Thank the universe the kids are okay. Where is Loui?" She fires at me. I can't even answer any questions. Afraid my voice would give everything away.

"I-I uh-um I need yo-You here I'll send for a car." I hand up before she responds. My back hits the wall and the tears fall even more.

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By her voice I know something went wrong. I was already dressed; just incase things went left. I was more than happy all my kids were safe. I couldn't help the dreaded feeling in the pit of my stomach.

I waste no time running to the car. Every thought runs through my head. Why haven't I heard from Loui? Why didn't she come with the kids? With a bouncing leg and heavy heart I wait. The ride seemed like a lifetime.

We pull up to Loui private hospital. There goes that dreaded feeling again. Walking into the main entrance; there's blood everywhere. It looks like a fucking massacre. Panic arises in my body. There is chaos everywhere, people running in every direction.

This looked like a room full of wounded soldiers coming from battle. I don't bother asking for help, I make my way to the private sector. There I find a weeping Paris. I flash over to her in panic. "Hey hey what's wrong? What happened talk to me"

With weak puffy eyes she looks. "I-I was to-to late I-" she's not making sense her words her jumbled. "Calm down please baby, late who how what happened Paris." I hold her face in my hands, making her hold eye contact with me.

"She's gone he's gone they're both gone Laya I lost them I-it hu-hurts baby it hurts" she weeps out. "Hi-his mom he lost his m-mom" she cried into my shoulder. And it dawns on me, she's talking about Louise. My heart drops to my stomach.

"Paris where is Louise?" I whisper out. I feel her body shakes viciously at my words. "Sh-she didn't ma-make it I'm so sorry I tried I swear I tried." She cried harder into my neck. My whole body goes numb. "M-my brother is go-gone too"

The pain radiating off of her is overwhelming. I can't thing straight. "The baby where is the baby?" I ask with a broken voice. "H-he's in the room his name is Alexander she named him before she died."

At her words I can't help the tears. All she ever wanted was a baby, now she's not here to raise him. I feel disgust, anger, fear and so much more. My best-friend since I was 12 years old. She fucking left me, she was supposed to be here.

I feel Paris comfort me this time. With her arms wrapped around me as we cry together. A loss so close to our hearts. When I couldn't cry anymore tears I got up. I wanted to see my Nephew; who I'll now raise as my son.

Walking into the room I look at the sleeping boy. He looks exactly like her. Touching his soft skin, tears make their way down my face. "My dear boy, I'll love you like my own. I got him Loui"

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The passing weeks seemed like a blur. Everyone funerals, dealing with 5 kids. Battling silent depression and anxiety everything is a shit show. Losing my best-friend took so much from me.

I don't think Alex would've survived this, if not for Paris. They share a blood bond; making their connection stronger. I couldn't look at or hold him without crying. He reminded me so much of her. His little smile his eyes everything it's all her.

"Hey love dinner is ready come eat with us please." I can hear the desperation in her voice. I haven't been doing my duties as a wife or mother. If it wasn't for Paris everything would fall apart. "Okay" I whisper out.

I haven't done much talking since everything, my voice doesn't seem to work anymore. I feel too many things I don't know how to explain. So much has happened, and it was all too fast. I make my way to the dining room. I see all my babies in their seats waiting to eat.

I greet them with kisses, I miss their giggles and smiles. I get to Alex and my heart clenches. I lean down kiss his forehead. "I'm glad you joined us we miss you" I can hear her voice break.

I look into her eyes, seeing so many emotions flash through them. One look stands out and it's love. She still loves me after I checked out on her. I haven't been there for her at all, and yet she still loves me.

"I love you I'm back I'm sorry I-I it just hurts and I know you're hurting to I'm sorry mi amor. I wanna get better for all of you. Thank you for loving me. I missed you too all of you."

I see her eyes twinkling with relief and love. I walk over sitting in her lap. Kissing her after weeks of nothing. The kiss makes both of us whimper. I missed this her touch. I pull back looking into her eyes.

"I'm here for you now, I'm sorry it took me so long thank you for everything mi amor" I whimper put kissing her again.

"I love you too I love you so much. We are in this together you fall I pick you up. We're a team found my home in you. I found new love."