Shattered Hearts [La Costa Organósi #1]

CHAPTER 4

I WAS peacefully watching the sunset to down here in the park. Napagpasyahan ko na pumunta rito kaninang tanghali. I was so bored there so yeah. I close my eyes feeling the sun hitting my face. When I saw the sun, My problem ease. I was humming my favourite song, The song 'Unang Sayaw' by Nobita. I was so fvcking relate to this song. I dunno.

“Omygod! Venreah?!” Napamulat ako ng marinig ko ang pamilyar na boses. Agad na nakita ko ang babaeng kinasusuklaman ko. Ang isa sa sumira sa buhay ko. Pinatigas ko ang aking expression. Hindi ko sya pinansin at humarap ulit sa sinag ng araw.

“Venreah! Ikaw nga!” It was her ofcourse the one and only fvcking Kim. D-mn. Nandito pala to eh. Bat hindi nalang sya ang pakasalan ni Pietro? Tutal tipo nya naman ang mga pokpok na kagaya nya.

“Tsk. Stop acting like we're close. D-mn. It irritate the h-ll out of me.” Agad napawi ang kanyang ngiti ng sabihin ko iyon. I roll my eyes. Hindi nya ako maloloko. Tsk. I knew her. Alam kong may kailangan sya saakin kaya siguro, Inutusan nya si Pietro na dalhin ako rito, “And also, I'm now poor. Hindi ako mayaman kaya wala kang mapapala saakin.” I said and turn.

“You can't forgive me, Ven?” She said made me to stop. I turn again and smirk at her. She's crying. D-mn. Good for her. I want to make her cry more. Because It can make me feel good. D-mn.

“Sa tingin moba, Madali kang mapatawad? Kayo ni Pietro? Tsk. Hindi.” I said at her full of angriness. I can feel the clench of my jaw. Mabagsik ang aking anyo.

“Mga bata pa tayo nun, Ven! Patawarin moko. Please,” I smile at her sarcastically. D-mn this woman. She expected me to fvcking forgive her?! I'm not a fvcking fool. D-mn it. I change and that's because of what they did to me. Fvck it. I avoided crying infront of her. No matter how She cries hard, I don't feel pity on her. Not even a little. Siguro ganto talaga kapag may ginawang masama sayo ang tao.

“Kahit kailan, Hinding hindi kita mapapatawad, Kim. You and fvcking Pietro steal our money, Our lot. Dad and Mom died because of depression. I fvcking caged myself for fvcking three years because i feel so guilty about them. And your asking me to fvcking forgive you?! Fvck you and Pietro! I'm not forgiving! Alam mo ba ang nangyari saakin ha?! Muntik na akong mabaliw! Mabaliw, Kim! T-ngina. Tapos kayo, Nagpapakasaya sa pera namin. T-ngina. Wag kanang mag-expect na papatawarin ko kayo. Dahil kayo. Kayo ang taong sumira sa akin.” I said and left there. I was crying inside the car. I couldn't take the pain anymore. Remembering how dad killed himself with rum everyday. Mom suicidal. I was fvcking very guilty. And now, There gonna ask me to forgive them?! Fvck them! I am not forgiving! T-ngina nila.

Agad kong minaneho ang aking kotse patungo sa Mansion. I was crying in the whole ride. D-mn. Nanginig ang aking kamay habang nagmamaneho. Hininto ko ang kotse sa tapat ng bahay at agad na inutusan si Manong Edgar na ipark ito sa parking lot ng bahay. Agad akong pumasok. Nakita kong napatayo si Pietro. Nagtagis ang aking bagang habang nakatingin sakanya ng matalim.

“Where the h-ll did you fvcking go?!” He said. Feeling ko tumaas ang aking galit sa sinabi nya. Nilingon ko sya at binigyan ng nakakamatay na tingin. I saw his eyes widen. I know He notice my eyes. I was crying.

“Wala kang pakialam! T-nginamo. Magnanakaw ka!” Buong lakas ko syang sinampal. Puno iyon ng galit. Tumagilid ang muka niya. Agad akong tumalikod at umakyat para maiwasan kong kaawaan sya. Mahal na mahal kopa naman sya kahit ngayon. T-ngina. Mahal na mahal ko ang lalaking sumira sa buhay ko. Lalaking nagnakaw ng ari-arian namin. Lalaking dahilan kung bakit namatay ang aking mga magulang. Pvtangina. Binuksan ko ang aking kwarto at padabog na sinara ito. Malakas kong sinuntok ang pader. Masakit pero hindi kasing sakit ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. T-ngina. Agad kong sinundan iyon ng isa pang suntoo hanggang sa mapuyat ako at mapaupo sa sahig. Umiiyak na ako ulit. Agad kong tinabon ang aking dalawang palad sa aking muka.

Tumayo ako ulit. Hinarap ang pader at sinuntok uli iyon. Naramdaman kong may tumulo mula roon. Dugo. Pero hindi ko iyon pinansin. Wala akong pakialam. Ang gusto kolang ay  ang malabas ang galit na matagal ko nang tinatago. Matalim ang aking mga mata. Hindi kona alam. Bumabalik na naman ako sa pagiging ganto ko. Ang muntik ko nang pagsunod sa aking mga magulang. Kung wala lang si Cerun ay matagal na akong patay. Sana nga namatay nalang ako. Sana isinama nyo nalang ako dyan, Ma, Pa. Kasi pakiramdam ko, hindi ko na kakayanin ang sakit. Ang sakit na nadadama ko.

“Bat nyo naman kasi ako iniwan rito mag-isa?” Naiiyak na tanong ko habang nakaupo sa higaan. Pumapatak ang aking luha pati narin ang dugo saaking kamao. Agad akong humiga at nagkumot. Pinikit ko ang aking mga mata hanggang sa makaramdam ako ng antok. Agad akong nilamon ng dilim at dinala sa masamang panaginip na aking iniiwasan.

PIETRO

“TANGINA!” Patuloy ako sa paglatigo saaking sarili. Remembering, How She cries kanina make me wanna punch myself. Do I really make this hard for her? Am i too selfish if I want to stay with her for the rest of my life? D-mn. This is my fvcking fault. Bat hindi konalang kasi ibalik sakanya ang pera then set her free. Bat hindi ko sya kayang pakawalan. Gamit ko ang latigo na may matalim na steel kaya damang dama ko ang sakit pero inignora ko iyon at patuloy lang. I didn't notice I was already fvcking sobbing. It was almost two hours since I started it. But I didn't stop. I wanna punish myself. I know She having a hard time when I steal the money on her. I was too selfish that time. I'm too desperate to become rich. I didn't think that She would go like this. Hate me to death. That She would wish to die just not to be with me. Ganon nya ako kakinasusuklaman.

“Fvck!” I was cursing. Finally, I stop. Napahiga ako sa kama at itinapon ang latigo. I felt relief when I couldn't hear her cries anymore. Maybe She was already asleep. I stood up and go ouside. I open her room. Sumilip muna ako bago napapasyahang pumasok. I was walking slowly. And then When I reach her spot, I pull the kumot from her. Ginamot ko ang kanyang kamao na nagdudugo. Saka pinunasan ang kanyang pawis. I sigh while looking at her. She looks very innocent but When She's awake, She look like a demon. I understand it. It's my fault. She move little and make a cute snore make me chuckle. Mahina kong pinisil ang kanyang ilong. I take her a picture and then kiss her forehead. I leave her room while smiling.

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