One day I had woke up. I had remembered how happy you are while calling my name and saying, " Wake up your Prince is already here to pick you up." So I got a mixed reaction of being shocked and happy. I thought it was really happening in real life but I have woke up and realized that it was just a dream. After a few minutes of pondering my aforesaid dream , I had realized that it already happened before in my real life but during that time I'm not yet ready. As of now I'm still confused if I'm going to follow what you had commanded to me before you died, because I am still stocked up on my childhood memories and still embracing my pride. I mean it's not really a pride but a self-contentment and self-appreciation for myself that I want to fulfill in order for me to be happy as a young woman now. You knew me well that ever since I was young I never disappointed you and my guardian because I had my own standard and timeline to meet and I am grateful that I had achieved it despite of challenges. It is not about to be proud of but my great endeavor and love for education had forced me to thrive and pursue it. In fact my achievements are enough as my means of saying thank you to you and to extend also my gratefulness to my guardian, teachers, my friends and the people that surrounded me. You knew me that I hate failures and it has no place for me. But upon growing up I realized that I cannot escape failures because it's part of my life. You know me well that I am a serious type of person and will do my best especially on academic area. But pardoned me for not passing the supposed to be my last exam after my graduation. During those time I am not yet prepared so I failed to pass it and honestly speaking I am still drained during those days. Maybe you can blame me or not proud of me because I have not passed it. But for me, it's really a great struggle and it's not as easy as what you think if you would be on my shoes during that time.At least I had tried my best to conquer my fear and hoping for the right time to come. Though it takes years for me before I had moved on on not passing the Board Exam .Perhaps now I have already accepted and embraced it and moving forward for my future. It is because I do believe that failures are just the beginning of everything----new learnings, wisdom, knowledge, values and hope.
