It's so hard to be the one who will provide and carry the burdens of a family. I just want them to understand me. Just a simple wish to be alone and let me go just a little while. I wish I was the baby of the family for a little while because I want to feel the care and love they give to our bunso.
I ran away... I don't know where I am. I just want to run and forget them. The responsibility, pressure, and all the hardships I went through just to be a perfect daughter to them.
I didn't know that holding back what I felt for the past few years was made me react this way. I wish I had just said those words. I wish I had become true to what I feel. I wish I had become so open. I wish I had said "I am tired".
I check my phone. It's already past midnight. I didn't feel hungry at all. I just run until I see these city lights above. I didn't know about this area, why and where it is. It's just my feet take me to this place.
Did you already feel like you were carrying a big bag on your back, and when you were with other people, you somehow forgot you were in pain?
I am happy to be around with these people, but at the end of the day, when you are in the room, you just feel "empty." like a lost soul, just wondering where I fit in this world.
"Ma, alis na po ako." sabi ko. Late nanaman ako yari ako nito kay Ms. Riane. This past few days kasi lagi ako late sakanya. Nagaasikaso kasi ako ng papeles for my job and ang hirap kumuha ng mga dokumento dito sa Manila, Takte di ko ba alam kung tinutulungan ba tayo makaahon sa hirap o lalo lang tayo pinapahirapan ng gobyerno na 'to. "Sige, ingat" sambit nya.
"Hay nako, Ms. Naomi.. Anong oras na.. Pang-apat na araw mo na 'to ha?!" sambit ni Ms. Riane.
"Pasensya na po, Ms.. " kamot ulo kong tugon at umupo na sa upuan ko.
Pag upo ko nga'y naghihikgikan ang mga kaibigan ko sa gilid. Mga diablo talaga!
"Tol, hanga talaga ako sa determinasyon mo eh" sabi ni Tin. Kaya napakunot noo ako "Bakit nanaman?! talaga sasabay ka pa sa badtrip ko sa umaga ha?!" sigaw kong sabi. "Tol, naangasan nga ako sayo kasi may honor kana eh, First Honor sa pagiging late!" at tawang tawa naman sila. Kaya naman nakinig nalang ako sa harapan at baka may ihukay ako ngayon.
Pagkatapos nga ng klase namin ay dumiretso kami sa field para magpahangin sa sobrang stress sa mga tasks na gagawin namin.
"Guys, ano balak nyo nito? Same gawi pa din ba? Review tayo sama sama kila Sammie?" tanong ni Marie.
"Nako wag kayo maniniwala sa review na yan "sambit naman ni Zell. "Totoo! maya maya magsisindi na yan tas di na natin namalayan na lasing na tayo." sabi naman ni Anne.
Nako di ko na talaga mapagkakatiwalaan 'tong mga 'to. Review review mamamatay naman tayo lahat. EMS.
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Non-FictionOften, we need somebody to talk to, rely on, or live with for the rest of our lives. Once things just don't work out, you'll lose the love, trust, and all you've invested in. So you'll just wonder why your existence or why you're in that position.
