why would you? (phan)

8 - WTF!

What the actual fuck just happened. I mean well fuck. I don't know my feelings towards Phil right know I'm still trying to get my head around why he stopped hurting me. He fucking loves me, well that's the first.

"Dan, can we just not talk about the you know.... The phone call" he said. Shit he heard.

"Y-yeah" I stuttered.

"Boys dinner" becky called.

***after dinner***

"We should probably get changed" he explained. It was 7 at night. "And then do you wanna watch some buffy" he added.

"Sure" I said while smiling.

He walked out of the bath room and I think he got changed in there. I got changed well I didn't really but you know. I took my jeans off and got into bed. I was wearing a long sleeved t-shirt so he couldn't see my cuts/scars. They where mostly scars by know and I couldn't feel the pain.

Phil came back in with a towel around his waist. I don't think he realised I was here he must have forgot. He was about to pull of the towel when I coughed loudly with my eyes closed.

"Ugh sorry just err don't look"

"Yeah because I was totally gonna look Phil" I said sarcasticly.

"Right you can look" he explained. He had his boxers on too but no top. This was gonna be awkward. He put on buffy and jumped in bed. What the fuck he started to rest on me. Awkward.... He soon fell a sleep. All I could think about was Phil.

Fuck.
Why.
Phil.
Skink.

His head was rested on my chest and he looked so cute.... no bad Dan you can't think about him that way. I mentally face-palmed my self. Phil started to murmur in his sleep. Like "don't" and "him" and.... "badger," or was it "bad guys" I'm going with... badger...

I started to feel really uncomfortable know I needed a pee and I couldn't turn the TV off. I decided I would move Phil head just a little. I got up and turned of the TV and the little lamp... incase demon goats try to get us. I went to the toilet and washed my hands and went to sleep. While I was a sleep I could feel Phil wrap his grip around my waist. he was warm and I was cold so I didn't complain. He did the odd murmur but it was something weird like "unicorn" or "emo-goose".

***morning***

"Phil Shit wake up know" I said because we where going to be late.

"Dan shut up its fricken half team know sleep" he protested.

"Oh wait... what.... sorry.... I didn't here about this when did this happen."

"it got announced in yesterday's assembly"

"Oh" and with that we slept till 12 o'clock. We got up and realised we where spooning. I had my arms wrapped around Phil waist. My head in the crook of his neck. I surprisingly didn't move he was squishy... then suddenly "aww" Jessica whispered then closed the door.

"Dan... DAN!" he got up from my grip. And hugged me. Why was up with this boy and fucking hugging. I hugged back and felt butterfly's in My Stomach. And it was hard to speak and I enjoying it. It was a nice feeling.

What is happening to me? I don't trust Phil do I? NO OF COURSE NOT. He's your ex-bully. I mean I don't you know.... love him.... I hardly like him...

I suddenly realised why he was hugging me. My cuts and scars were showing. crap.

"Shit, Dan I'm so sorry... er... oh... Shit.... did I make you do this?" he asked.

"No...uh... kinda.... err..... yeah" I muttered.

"Please don't! Ever again Dan your gorgeous don't suicide because of me. Please" he begged. I triumphantly blushed at him calling me gorgeous. Me! I'm so happy.

"I won't I promise" I said glaring into his clear blue eyes!

"What do you want to do today"

"Wanna hang out at the shippy with chrissy and peejy" I asked. The shippy was a massive ship that got covered over with a smooth path. Know everyone hangs out there. It's a good place for skateboarding and riding scooters and stupid people get drunk and smash bottles every where.

"Sure" he said smiling.

I loved his smile. No, no you don't.

A/N

I'm gonna stop doing athour notes. And update when ever I can.xx

Holly xx