In another eyes. [ENG] [Dekubaku x OC]

twenty. (1)

"Hey! Is that my favorite foreigner?!" Mei greets, in her usual high tone of voice, ready for me to go hug her as every time.

I run fast to her, chuckling as she squeezes me tighter than ever. "Hi..."

"Hi, sweetheart, how are you?"

"I.., I'm better" I whisper, lowering my head when she lets go of me, her gaze is always so deep for me to handle. "So much better, actually. Today.., hm, you know, was the last daily session, now I'm just going thrice a week..."

"Damn, that's amazing, darling!" She snaps, with a genuine smile full of love. "Everything's going so well, I'm so happy for you!"

"Yeah, I.., mh.., I'm doing fine, yeah.., thank you."

I don't know why, but this woman always makes me so, so nervous.

I think it's because I like her. I like her so much, she's like... my impossible love.

"Well" She hums; "I'm so glad you're here now, I'm kind of excited to check on my baby's progress. Is it okay if we try now?"

"Ah.., yeah, sure."

She then goes for it while I wait in here. Deku asked a few weeks ago for an item to channel and redirect my energy, although I honestly think this is all in vain. It's not even visible energy, much less storable.

I'm just cooperating right now. I also really like coming here to visit her, she's been one of the few people I've could come and see outside the dorms.

It's been full fifteen weeks since I had that mental breakdown, just under four months.

It was a such a big crisis of emotions and feelings. Since I had that dream where I saw my mother lifeless, it's been extremely difficult for me to get out of that mental trance.

I mean, I had one...

I did, and.., and nothing seems to work to make my brain understand none of this is actually happening.

It all once cornered me into doing something with no way back too...

I wanted to stop this all. To stop my brain, the voice in my head, the emotions on my body.

I just couldn't take it anymore. I felt like there was just no purpose on waking up, on keep on living, on.., do anything at all. It just.., it didn't matter how good I was living in the moment, I.., just kept on thinking I didn't even deserve it.

I took so many pills. I fell unconscious for many hours, and when I woke up they had already made a decision about my mental health.

I recently came out of a hell I honestly don't remember that well, the barely enough time I was conscious of it, it was just horrible. That's exactly why I'm now so, so grateful I can be here, with people loving me and giving me their unconditional support.

And.., yeah, I'm talking about two men in particular.

I haven't had the chance to go back to how everything used to be, so I don't really know how things are between them, though everything says they're doing so, so well on their friendship, and that makes me truly happy.

"Will Deku and Bakugo come?"

"Ah.., yeah" I say, nodding, looking there at Mei come straight to put her gloves on my hands. "They should be here soon, I guess."

None of them have left me alone for almost anything at all, and I know these five minutes will be the longest it'll take them both to come. Even in terms of work, they requested a temporary agency exchange with Hawks two weeks ago, when I went back to work, and although I spend my time inside and they on patrol, they always make sure to call every hour.