White Blood~ (XiaoVen)

Fifteen: Sleepless Nights

Xiao opened his eyes, sighing. He felt Venti's hand on his waist, and the other on his chest, their legs entangled. 

Venti spoke softly, "Unable to sleep...?" And Xiao nodded, ""Yeah, im...Thinking about the other night..." He whispers. Hes not even sure why they're whispering, it's just them in Venti's room, the door was shut, no one was walking by, it was silent. 

Venti sighs, his breath against the back of Xiao's neck, making him shudder, "Wanna talk about it?" Venti asks, his arms tightening against Xiao's body. "Mmm...No, not really...Wanna forget it, make it leave my mind...its all i think about, really." He replies, his hand slipping into Venti's, wanting to feel him, to make sure he is real, his mind was telling him things he refused to listen to. 

Venti hums, his lips brushing against Xiao's ear, and he sat up, "You know you didnt deserve that, right? Nobody should ever do what they did to you without consent or reason." He stares at Xiao, "You shouldn't have gone through that," Venti speaks. Xiao rolls onto his back to look up at Venti, he was breathing heavily, the action of him moving fast made him breathless, "You...Uhm, you deserve to be...be loved, Xiao...Y-You deserve to be treated with respect." Venti speaks, sighing softly...

Four am rolled around, Xiao was half-awake, listening to Venti breath, his breathing was steady, raspy... "I never apologized...about out argument, youre probably asleep, but, im sorry, i don't regret meeting you, Atalus. Not at all. Im just..." He pauses, sighing, bringing himself closer to Xiao if that was possible, "I could never regret meeting you, im just...im going to die...sooner than people expect, I'm going to...gonna go before my friends..before you. And i truly like you, truly. Im scared that if i tell you, youll just...get more attached...You need...need to be at your best when Ganyu wakes...and if im gone before she wakes..itll hurt you. And you know this...thats why i pushed you away for so long, because im helplessly in love with you, and that complicates things, if...if i wasnt sick, curable...then maybe we would have a chance..but im not. Im incurable..."

Xiao sighs, "I know you're sick...that doesnt change the fact...that im helplessly in love with you as well, i know im hurting myself in the long run...ive accepted this, Venti...Its difficult to, but i am, always will be, on your side, by you, taking steps alongside. I will ask whatever gods there are to help you, because you deserve it...you deserve a life, its unfair that you cant get to live life to the fullest, i want you to, i want you to be able to get new lungs, i wish you were qualified to be on the transplant list...i really do.." 

"It happens." Venti whispers.

Xiao sits up, looking down at Venti, sighing, "I'm sorry." He spoke, making Venti shake his head, "Don't apologize." Venti says, reaching up to touch Xiao's cheek, the coldness of his (Venti's) hand making him flinch, but he leaned into his (Venti's) hand, his own hand touching his. 

Venti gently pulls him down, their lips brushing, "Will you hate me if i kiss you?" Venti asked, gently running a thumb across his cheek. Xiao laughs softly, whispering, "No, i could never hate you." 

"May i...?" Venti looks into his friends eyes, softness and love in his voice. 

"Kiss me, idiot," Xiao spoke, closing the gap that was once their, soft lips against his own. 

The two pulled away after a moment, Venti breathing heavily, "Out of breath?" Xiao teased. "Oh, shut up." Venti pulls him into another kiss, smiling softly...

YOOOO IVE HAD MAJOR PLOT TWIST IDEA OHHH MY GOOOODDDD YALL AINT GONNA LIKE THIS AHAHHA -love bennett