You Know You Love Me (Book one)

Chapter 16

Troye's POV

*HONK! HONK!*

"Tilly, they're here!"

"Wait I'm not done."

"Tyler, what on earth could be taking you so long?" I walk to the bedroom to find Tyler tearing everything apart

"Um, Ty, what ya doin?" I lean on the door frame and stick my hands in my pockets

"I'm looking for my phone."

"Did you check your pockets?"

"Troye, if it was in my pocket then I-" He lifts his hand from his pocket, his dainty fingers wrapped around the small rectangle.

"I told you." He furrowed his eyebrows, "Now common, everyone's waiting outside."

Tyler and I walk outside to be greeted by our friends.

"So what took you two so long?"

"Tyler couldn't find his phone."

"Oh, well did you find it?" Joe asked walking up to Tyler, giving him a quick hug.

"Yeah, it was in my pocket the whole time."

"Ty, you're a genius." Alfie puts his hand on Tyler's shoulder

"Shut up." His face turned bright red. I put my arm around his waist and he huddles into me. I place a small kiss on his head

"So where are we going?" Tyler says looking up at the group of brits.

"Well, we all thinking we could go out for lunch," Zoe said.

"Sure, I mean if there's food I'm in." we all start cracking up

"Well anyway, we found a place a few minutes from here, but it's too far to walk."

"UBER TIME!" Marcus suddenly yells at the top his lungs, I snapped my head up from looking at Tyler, my eyes wide

"Geez, Marcus! A bit more of a warning next time." Joe said uncovering his ears, trying to steady his breathing

"Sorry..." Marcus scratches the back of his head

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"So what would you guys like today?" the waitress said, little enthusiasm in her voice. 

We all place our orders and the girl walks away. We then all immediately start talking to one another. Tyler and Zoe about collabs, Joe to Marcus about a girl he saw at another table. Then Alfie and I on how crazy the fans are.

"So when you gonna make another video, mate?" he said.

"I was thinking about doing-" That's when I saw him. It was Sam. He was standing at the front desk looking at me and when he that I had noticed him he started walking over. My heart stopped in my chest, a lump formed in my throat and my hands started to tremble.

"Troye, you okay, mate."

I said nothing, I couldn't speak. As he got closer it seemed as though time had slowed down. Everything was blurry, everything except him.

"Hey, Troye..." Sam said, he was now standing behind Marcus.

"Um, babe, who is this?" Tyler asked from beside me.

"Oh my god..." I whispered.

I look up at Sam and he was staring right back at me

"Troye, baby , what's wrong?" I turn my head to see worry on Tyler's face

"T-that's Sam." As soon as the words slipped past my lips his face turned three shades lighter.

"Troye, can we talk?" I look back up at him, my hands still shaking uncontrollably.

No I can't talk right now, Sam. At least not like this, I think to myself

"Troye please, we need to talk about what happened at your house." Within seconds the memories that I kept burried in my mind all came flooding back, making my stomach turn, then it happened, a too familiar feeling washed over my body.

It happened so quickly. My breathing started to speed up rapidly, I started sweating and my eyes started darting around the room, I wasn't able to focus on anything. All I could hear was muffled voices and noises. I haven't had one in so long. I thought I was gonna be okay for good. Having a panic attack today wasn't really on the top of mine, or anybody else's list.

A/N- Okay, all imma say is yes, I know that you probably hate me right now and yes I know this isn't exactly what's happens during a panic attack so please bear with me. If you have any suggestions about how I should go about writing it then please comment. I will see you all next time my little marshmallows. luv ya! Xoxo

-R