You Know You Love Me (Book one)

Chapter 9

Troye's POV

"Troye baby, what the hell happened?" I couldn't talk and Tyler knew that. All I could do was look. I then wrapped my arms around his waist, burying my head in his chest. I cried for what seemed like hours and honestly, I think we were sitting on the floor for at least, like I said, an hour.

 The whole time Tyler ran his fingers through my hair calming me, but I just couldn't. My body was shaking from crying so hard, my breathing unsteady.  After a while, Tyler took my face in his hands.

"Hey, you ready to talk now."

I slowly shook my head. He then took my hand and led me to the couch.

"Tell me exactly what happened." Tyler wiped the tears from my cheeks.

I told him everything that happened. How Sam had randomly found the house and that he wanted to get back together.

"Umm, Troye if you don't mind me asking, who is Sam."

Dammit, I never told Ty who Sam was. I only told him how I was cutting for a while, but when I moved out here I stopped and haven't since.

"He's my ex-boyfriend."

"You never told me about an ex, Troye, I don't even recall you telling me that you had a boyfriend."

"Well we kept it secret, the only people that knew were my family. We were together for almost a year, but we wound up breaking up."

"Why did you guys break up?"

"Oh, no reason."

"Okay, Troye there is always a reason why two people break up and obviously it was pretty bad." My hands started to sweat and a lump formed in my throat.

"Tilly, he's the reason why I was cutting for so long."

Tyler gasped and covered his mouth.

"Oh my god, Troye why didn't you tell me."

"Because I hate talking about it and when I do, it brings back memories, memories of what he did to me. He cheated on me and I was stupid enough to forgive him, Ty. Then he stared calling me names and talking down to me as though I was nothing to him. I would go cry in the bathroom, that's when I started cutting and he knew what I was doing to myself, he just didn't give a fuck. He called me pathetic and stupid and he told me I wasn't good enough for anyone. After awhile I started believing him. That's when my cutting got worse, I started to do it more frequently and each time, I was cutting deeper. There was multiple times that I came close to dying, Ty. That's when I had to leave, I moved back home for a while, then you asked me to move in and I wasn't going to turn you down, you were my best friend. By then I had stopped cutting and everything got sooooo much better."

I grabbed both of Tyler's hands and looked him in the eyes.

"You have helped me so much these past few months and for that, I thank you. I-I love you Tilly."

I had finally said it and I was so happy that I did. Tyler's eyes were filling with tears. He then took me in his arms.

"I love you too, Troye and I won't let anyone hurt you ever again."

I place my hands on the back of his head and pull him into me planting my lips on his. We stay there for a few seconds before releasing. I continue to wrap my arms around his neck and bury my head into the crook of his neck, him holding me as close to his body as possible

"Hey, Tilly?"

"Yeah Troye?"

"Promise me something."

"Anything."

"Promise that you're never going to leave me."

"I promise, Troye, I promise."

A/N- IM BACK!!!!! Didn't I tell you guys that I had plans? *silence* Well I did and I know you loved that Troye finally said I love you but I also feel like you hate me cause Troye also cut and may your may not have really bad stress, I'm not giving anything away for future story at all ;) Anyway I really hope you guys enjoyed that depressing yet incredibly sweet chapter. I hope you all have a wonderful day and I love all of you adorable little marshmallows. Xoxo

-R