The Group Of Secrets(On Hold)

Chapter One

*beep*beep* ! It was 6 am when ivy awoke from a cringing nightmare from her past . She resented the sound of the alarm , but she managed to get up . Ivy then began her regular routine. She pounded on the make up and put on her lose clothes and sweatshirt . Her eyes had a black outline around them and she had cover up smudged along her face , it was her protective layer from the world . Ivy looked at the time and rolled her green eyes and began to walk out of her Brocken down house to the place where a bus full of people awaited her .

It took all her strength to board that yellow object and all the thoughts began to race through her head. Is he looking at me ? Does he think I'm ugly , I'm sure he does. Is she looking at me ? Maybe my outfits ugly ,well obviously its ugly I knew I shouldn't have worn this .Ivy took the last step to her seat and sat down gently so she didn't make a sound, she didn't want anymore eyes on her. As soon as her butt reached the seat her white head phones made their way to her ears where she quickly escaped from the judgemental world for just for a little while . Ivy looked up as she heard a girls' snicker.

Ivy fealt her whole body quiver she knew that little giggle was toward her and no one could convince her otherwise . She slowly raised her head to two girls directly 3 seats ahead of her with perfect brown tinted hair . They seemed to be laughing , laughing harder than anyone she ever seen . She looked down and fealt her body quiver ,Ivy knew that giggle was towards her outfit or maybe her hair or maybe towards just her in general . She put her head against the seat , and began to blast music through head phones , so she couldnt hear the giggling anymore. Than the bus came to a hault .

Ivy looked out the window, their it was... the hell-hole that awaited her presence, she felt like the building was mocking her . As soon as she glanced at the school she began thinking which way she should go to her homeroom . She wanted the path where there was no objects that she could see herself in , she absolutely resented her reflection and everything it showed. She went down the steps ,gently one by one and never made a sound . Ivy took the longest way to homeroom trying to blow off coming in contact with even more people. She came face to face with the prettiest girl in school.

If you just walked by her your body would over flow with jealously. The girls name was Ciara , she had natural blonde hair and these silvery blue eyes. Just knowing some of her feature already makes you intreged doesn't it? Ciara also has a incredibly flat stomach and a thigh gap that makes you cringe with jealously. Ivy hated her ,she hated everything about her Ciara was stuck up but,who could blame her she was beautiful. Ciara showed her perfect smile and pranced down the hall way. Ivy stumbled up the stairs trying to have the perfect pace without looking awkward.

Ivy ran into her best friend Sofia who greeted her with her an over dramatic hug ;like usual. Ivy smiled of course ,Sofia was her best friend since kindergarten and she loved her dearly . Ivy and Sofia had their little chat like usual and she just gathered all her things as the bell rang. "shit I'm late" , Ivy didn't like being late , she knew as soon as she stepped foot in the classroom all the eyes would turn towards her. Ivy entered the 4 white walled room while trying to ignore the stares but eventually ended up landing on the floor. Everyone giggled and snickered , even Ivy did . Ivy made sure no one ever knew the hurt she felt and the hatred she had against herself.

Ivy gathered her things and walked over to her seat without a problem. The teacher , Ms.Tang told the class to "settle down" Ivy grabbd her purple binder than took notes as the teacher spoke. Soon enough her notes turned into doodles that expressed the emotions she was feeling amongst herself. Her pencil created a slightly large dark circle ,within the circle were eyes . Ivy was drawing a face, than a teardrop came from the eye and all the hateful things Ivy ever heard about herself flooded her head. Ivy's mind was practically screaming at her she wasn't good enough . Ivy raised her hand and got a pass to the girls bathroom where she began to let her sarrows out.

But for Ivy this little episode she was having was normal. Ivy looked around looking for something sharp , she wanted to feel something she was tired of pretending to be numb. All of a sudden she saw a glimpse of something shiny and silver , she crawled to the object and quickly found out it was a pin. Ivy grabbed the pin and ran into the stall. Ivy lifted up her blue sleeve and Looked at the scars she had among her arm. She took the pin and slid it across her wrist causing a line of blood. Ivy felt relief rush over her body , it was like an elephant jumping off of her chest . Ivy grinned at the feeling of pain , but guilt soon rushed over her but she didn't care anymore. Ivy didn't care about anything. She wiped the tears off her face and ran to class so no one would think about her trip to the bathroom . But Ivy didn't dare to leave the pin , she never knew when she would need it again.

Ivy went to her other classes, sooner than later it was time for lunch. Ivy made her way to her locker at the end of the white hallway trying to stay out of everyone's way. As she looked around people were with friends and socializing amongst themselves. Ivy was alone , the way she always felt , but that was when she was happiest. She hated bothering people and didn't want anyone to have to suffer being with her. Ivy's books grew heavy and heavy as she got to her locker , she went to put her books down as one slipped right through her fragile hands, causing a loud noise Ivy jumped and blushed in awkwardness.

She felt like people were looking at her all of over because she made a noise with her book . Ivy just tried to pretend no one was looking at her ,Sofia came over gossiping about something but Ivy wasn't paying attention . Ivy didn't care about the latest gossip , but she knew if she told anyone this no one would be her friend . She didn't want that to happen she had few friends as it is and only had one true one and it wasn't Sofia.

The two girls walked down the stairs to go get their lunch . They walked past a hallway that led to the nurses office.. Sofia waved at a boy , a boy that seemed interesting to Ivy. Ivy asked questions about the boy to Sofia and Sofia basically ignored her and went off with other friend. Ivy walked the rest of the way to lunch alone with the boy still in her mind.

Ivy walked into the area where they served lunch , she grabbed whatever the luch is , bought it than left. She walked amongst the tables hearing the chatting and the giggles , everyone is always happy in her small town . Ivy sat at her table with her few friends , 4 in fact . 1 of them was Sofia , with brown short hair and green eyes . Than their was Linda with dark brown hair , with golden brown eyes . Linda was Ivy's lifesaver , she was sweet and never made Ivy feel alone . Also there was Ana , she was a natural blonde with blue eyes . Than their was Bree , the girl of secrets . All friends talked amongst themselves as Ivy stared out the window looking at the beautiful trees, sky's. Well Ivy thought everything and everyone was beautiful ,except herself . But Ivy never really made an effort to tell anyone that , but who would care!?Linda asked Ivy if anything was wrong and Ivy simply shook her head no.

Lunch quickly ended and all the friends went to their classes . If you looked at your little group you'd see normal teenage girls with laughing faces . That's what they were after all , we'll that's what everyone else thought .But not them , they knew they weren't normal. The friends walked up to the floor with all the lockers and got their things for last period .As Ivy and Sofia arrived in their last class together ,that boy she saw was still on her mind. She didn't know why or anything ,but she knew not to ask Sofia about him after all Sofia would only laugh at her . Just like everyone else in that god for saken school does,Ivy was different. Different than most teenage girls are these days. She then went into a deep thought about the boy with the white shirt ,green eyes and brown hair .Its like he was a river running through her mind ,every drop of water was a new thought about this boy . As Ivy sat day dreaming while the class continued around her the bell rang causing her to snap out of her trance . She ran to her Locker quick ,grabbed her things and went home.

But Ivy didn't want to go home , but she didn't want to stay at the hell hole.