Mate me

21

I sneak out of bed early this morning to come to the city hospital

The nurse bow as I pass by
"Luna, you are early" I smile at the doctors
"How are my pups?" She smile back
"They are all doing well"
"What happens to Nancy? I talked to her on Christmas and she told me some things about her help getting worst" she turn toward the glass where newborns are sleeping
"I'm sorry for not telling" she bows "the   King ask us to stop calling you, after the last time" I smile
"So is she getting worst? I thought the healing section made things better"

She looks around quickly before indicating her office
"Do you want a beverage?" I shake my head no sitting down "okay, I don't know what went wrong but she developed an infection, the one that wasn't cured is as if your powers missed with the witch cuss made quite a fuss with her system" she looks up at me "we tried with the antibiotic but her body keeps rejecting it, it even fasten the virus to other of her organs making her body weaker and she's way too young for an operation of that caliber."
"What are the risk of the operation?"
"87% failure"
"It was better before I did something, he was blind but alive 100% alive and well, its my fault"
"No Luna, the virus was already there so..."
"Let me try again, I haven't used my powers in weeks, I'm charged"
"I'm sorry Luna, The King prohibited it"
"Doctor" she shakes her head "at least tell me where she is? I didn't see her after Christmas"
"I'm sorry"

My phone ring lots of times during my ride back home

I walk fast to our room
"Where did you go? Why did you lock me out of the mind link?" I stare at him
"Why would you give such an order? I have my powers for a reason Dereck you have no right!"
"What are you talking about?"
"Nancy, you told them not to give me any notice about him and ...!"
"That child almost killed you Janeth!"
"Killed me? I fainted! How do you even reason?"
"I don't care I won't have a child bring a problem to your health"
"Are you messing around? What if it was your kid? what if your child was the sick one?"
"I'd love to think of that! But you are so busy with other people kid that you refuse to give me one!" I shush starring at him the realization hit him after a while I can feel his anger dissipating through the bond and replaced with guilt
"wait, I didn't mean that" I back off when he try to touch me
"tell the doctors to let me work"
"Jane" I walk away from the room "Jane! wait, I'm sorry okay? I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have said that. I was pissed? but I shouldn't have said it, either way, I am so sorry babe I really am"
"I don't want children Dereck" he stares at me
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm worn out my body can't support a child. I've been drugged, beaten, starved, and more. during my life, I lost my wolf for decades and had to cure slowly, like a human: I can heal people but not myself. Healing people take something out of me I didn't mind until, well, now. I'm broken Dereck, so many pieces that I myself can't find a glue. I can't have children, I'm sorry" He sits on the bed without looking at me

Minutes pass and I'm still waiting for a reaction

When he finally looks up at me I freeze
"Why didn't you tell me? I feel I'm sorry babe, I'm really sorry I didn't mean to"
"I didn't know you wanted pups you didn't tell me"
"Jane" his hand go from his face to his hair "this is something we have to do together! In no way you was supposed to ear and bear that yourself, I feel useless! I just yelled those harsh words at you" he walks toward me and embrace me "I'm sorry baby, I'm so sorry, I don't care if we can't have our pups I love you and that's all that matter. I was trying to protect you, I should have asked you before doing anything. I'm sorry"

I embrace him back staring at my face reflected in the mirror in front of me 'Why did you lie to him?' 'it isn't a lie Adriana, it's complicated'