✔️ Fix you

32. Lost

Jin woke up early as he decided, today he gonna talk with Tae. He wanted to scold him for being rude with him these days. He wanted to kiss him roughly to show him how much he is desperate and tell him how much he loves him. But can he do this? He scoffed. Atleast he will try today... Early in the morning he got ready and forced everyone to go to studio. He didn't show but he wanted to see V as early as possible. He was lying with himself that he was doing good without him. But it was all lie. He didn't wanted to face himself as he was looking so weak inside out.
He excused himself to go to washroom, Taehyung did not visit studio yet, he was getting so desperate, thinking why Tae not reached yet. While washing hands he looked at the mirror but he averted his gaze from himself, He did not want to accept that he was weak, he knew, if he saw his own mirror image he will end up crying, and it was the last thing he wanted to do.
He placed his hand on the water tab and sighed closing his eyes. His thoughts eating him inside. Why?...why on the earth Taehyung would act like he doesn't care. Why only he was getting affected too much. And Taehyung is very good at moving on. He tried to talk with him yesterday and he was not interested at all. Jin was a mess but the messier thing was he was not ready to accept he was a mess...
He flinched when someone's arm snaked around Jin's waist. Touch was too familiar, very much familiar. He squeezed his eyes tightly trying his best not to let fall down his tears.
"V?" Jin uttered even without opening his eyes. He shivered when his mouth let him took this name loudly after all these days. He liked it. He missed it. He wanted to take this name repeatedly. V Voo Ver...his love. Yes, he loved him. Jin felt his own tears pricking it out.

"Open your eyes Hyung, look at me" Tae mumbled from his crook of neck. Jin shivered at the touch. He looses his stiffness and melted down in Tae's arm.
"Look at me, Jin"
He heard again and tried to open his eyes scaring that it is his imagination. And it will vanish when he opened his eyes.
He looked at the mirror. The fascinating eyes he loved, was looking right at him. Jin looked at it with glistening eyes through mirror.

Tae smirked, "Accept it Hyung, You can't leave without me"

Jin took sharp breath, tilting his head to touch and rub his cheek to later's, "I can" his actions showing total opposite to his words.

Tae smiled and planted kisses on his cheek, his crook of neck, nape. "You definitely can't, and I will make you so weak,...so weak, that someday you will beg me to come back".

One droplet of tear ran through his one of eyes, he slightly scoffed, "Why are you doing this?, was I that bad boyfriend for you that you want to take revenge of me. I wanted to sort out the things between us yesterday but you ran away with that..." He stopped he didn't even wanted to take Bogum's name, he started hating that name, without reason.

"that, what?" Tae said while giving kisses.

"V?" Jin breathed out

"Yes Hyung" Tae made him turned to look at him, but still Jin was not looking at his eyes. Tae smirked and touched his chin and lifted it slightly making him looked at him. And raised his eyes to indicate to continue talking.

Jin finally looked at this brown eyes, hypnotic eyes. He amused how always this eyes do magic on him and make him speechless. Why on the earth he looked at it and made himself weak. He licked his lips nervously.

"You were saying something?" Tae asked looking at the wet plump pair of lip. It was pink, so tempting.

V covered the the little inches distance between their lips. They were claiming each other's territory.
Jin's eyes was closed but couldn't help to hold the tears, it was flowing down down..and down. He didn't wanted to open the eyes, because he knew once he opened the eyes, the moment will be gone. But he dared, he opened his eyes sobbing, and no surprise he was not there. His...his Voo was not there. He cried...cried a lot. He wanted to hid his face somewhere, where he can't see himself. He was feeling shameful on himself for his condition. He splashed the water on his face forcefully thinking tears will stop, but at contrary he was still crying. He stopped at some point. He looked at himself through mirror, his eyes, his all face was swollen. His eyes was all red, anyone could tell why. He again splashed some water and dried his face by napkin. He sighed and sat on the couch letting his head lay down on the edge of couch. After sometime when his heart started beating normally, he took out the phone and dialed to Namjoon.