Talking to Tom

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I got out of there right away.

When I called my manager she was more than happy to here that I would take the job.

I'm leaving tomorrow morning.

Since all of my things are already packed I have the rest of the night to myself. I decided to just sleep, I couldn't sleep as good when I didn't know if they were okay. But now I see that they are alright and I'm calm, I'm away from them so they are safe.

I need to wake up at 5am

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3:45am

I didn't sleep well.

The people next to me were loud all night and I was hot, then cold.

God I hope this airport isn't packed, and I hope my plane is quiet.

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Security wasn't bad, apparently nobody leaves on a Tuesday morning at 5am. Just me.

I have a smaller plane but still a few people. I have two seats to myself so I can get into a comfortable position.

I always sit by the window, I love looking at the view. Especially because the sun rising.

Since I could remember I have loved sunrises. You wake up with it. I remember watching it with Claire when we first met, we couldn't sleep. Like now.

I remember.

I remember seeing Willow get Claire muddy.

I remember calling her and running through plenty of red lights to make sure she was okay.

I remember bringing her to the ER and helping her walk.

I remember seeing her sleeping next to me for the first time.

I remember finding claire on the kitchen floor, I thought she was dead.

I remember the nurse telling me claire was pregnant.

I remember seeing them holding up Caroline and I was so grateful it was a girl. I just held her in my arms and realized she was the only thing I ever wanted.

I remember coming home with all the fan chaos.

I remember never sleeping...and I remember-what I don't want too.

I had so much time alone to think about how I could have possibly left my daughter alone crying and screaming. And I thought so hard that I forced myself to remember.

I was so out of it and yet I remember every detail. And I don't want too.

I remember what a wonderful life I have..had.

I can't leave. I can't go.

I need to get off this plane. How do I get off?