JENNIE POV
"You need to take these every 2 hours Jennie , it will ease your body pain , you may suffer from side effects such as mood swings and sleepiness but you have to take these I've written it down which ones to take and how many to take and we'll keep it an ongoing referral for you" Doctor Jin said to me
"Is it worth it if you've told me I'm going to die"
"Jennie if you can be consistent depending on how your body reacts to the medication then we could save you , I've saved so many patients from the same cancer as you but they were able to fight , you need to work with me in order for me to save you. You are a beautiful young lady and you have your whole life ahead of you , I want you to go home with the mindset that you will fight okay?" He says to me yet I don't know how will I cope , imagine being told you won't survive and now he's telling me to fight , why are you messing with my head. I wanted to sock him in the face but I just took a deep breath
"I know your mad at me , I don't mean to confuse you Jennie, it's just the way your going with the loss of appetite I don't know if you'll be okay , you need to work with me" he adds as if he read my thoughts
"Thanks doc" I smile as I take the medication and the instructions paper.
I hide them in my bag and go back home and Chae was fast asleep still.
I decided to clean the apartment since Chae forgot to take her bra off last night and flang it around the room , then she left her shoes laying around , her luggage half open and just scattered around. It's like living Lisa , the only thing we used to argue about was mess but she always used to say it was me , the only thing I used to leave around was my glasses and Lisa happened to sit on them a lot.
God I miss her so much.
I didn't use the vacuum so I had to use the broom around the whole house and then I mopped and I felt so tired and before I knew it the room went blank and I collapsed , all I remember was hitting my head on the corner of the bed.
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I woke up to Chae sitting beside me in the hospital bed
"I thought you died" she gasped and peppered kisses all over my face
"I'm fine , my head just hurts" I flinch as I touch the plaster on my forehead
"You fell and hit the corner of your head , I woke up because I thought we were in the middle of an earthquake" she says which makes me laugh but wince in pain
"I probably shouldn't of mopped but the floor got dirty from our shoes" I say lying to her , I felt dizzy whilst cleaning and I know it's the body pain I felt and I didn't take medication at all , when I probably should.
After being dismissed a couple of hours later Rosé and I went home and I didn't realise I slept until the next morning.
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"Jennie I'm going back this Friday and you've slept half of my time here , what the heck is wrong with you" she sighs
"I'm tired"
"How could you be tired you literally slept for so long seriously? Your so boring and miserable , you claim you don't love Lisa but since your divorce all I've seen you be is literally depressed , this is what some people with depression do , they force themselves to sleep the whole day away" She complains
"I didn't know you were a doctor" I chuckle
"It's not funny , what's wrong with you? How do you manage to sleep for that long , you don't eat anymore , you've gone paler and your eyes are always red , did you sniff crack with your friends that day?" She looks at me with concern
"No chae , I'm just relaxing" I shake my head as I sit up on the bed
"Your falling asleep again? Seriously JENNIE?"
"No no I'm awake look" I widen my eyes
"Fine you are so damn boring , I left my AirPods in London , I'm taking your one's out of your bag and I'm having a silent disco" she rolls her eyes , until it hit me , the medication is in my bag
"CHAE WAIT IM AWAKE" I jump up
She turns and looks at me "fine can we go out somewhere , I'll drive before you kill us both" she says
"Okay let me get ready" I jump out of bed and manage to sneak my bag for my own piece of mind.
That was close , I need her to leave on Friday because I can't have her know anything about this cancer.
I plan on sleeping my life away I know it's a toxic thing to say but my body is too weak to fight , the pain I have right now is just extreme.
I shut my eyes and clench as the pain gets worse , I feel dizzy and I need to get through the night , I'm faced towards my wardrobe so I go to the bathroom and lock it , sliding down to the floor in pain I read the instructions before taking the pills , am I about to drink water out of the bathroom tap? i don't have a choice and so I did.
I took the medication and took a deep breath waiting for it to kick in , I looked in the mirror and I felt disgusted with the way I looked.
Chae was right I've gone so pale , I don't look like the Jennie I was confident to be.
"Jennie are you taking a shit come on I booked us a table and the restaurant is a 10 minute drive so I booked it and told them we'll be there in 10 minutes"
"I'm taking a shit give me a second" i gasp as my body drops , I use the sink for support as tears stream out of my eyes , not from being hurt but from the pain I'm feeling.
I suck it up and open the door to see Chae waiting with her arms crossed "You haven't even changed , quick throw this dress on" she throws at me and I obliged.
By then the painkillers had kicked in and the sense of relief took over.
Thank god.
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Protecting You // JENLISA
FanfictionLisa has been left in the dark as to why her wife divorced her and left the country with Rosé. Jisoo chases her love but Lisa has too many hurdles to deal with. G!P Jisoo & Lisa G!P btw! :)
