Protecting You // JENLISA

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LISA POV

"Lisa you need to calm down , I know it's hard to take in but"

I throw up again , not being able to communicate with Seulgi

"Is everything okay?" Jin enters the bathroom followed by a few nurses

"Send the cleaning ladies in please" he says to them as he begins to approach me , he grabs hold of my wrist and moves it in a circular motion , somehow my vomiting started dying down , I took a deep breath , my eyes were watery , my nose was running , my hair was all over my face even though Bambam held it most of the time I got out of control.

"You okay?" He bends down , the smell in here is horrendous

"Yeah"

"You need to have a shower , your body is overheating from the stress , I'll let you use the hospital shower , and by then Jennie will be awake and you'll be able to speak to her okay?" Jin says to me softly with a hint of worry in his voice

He helps me up and guides me to the shower room

"Nurse stay outside until Lisa is done" he directs her

"Okay"

"Your clothes" Seulgi hands them over to me

I enter the shower and allow the cold water to hit my body , I felt slightly better considering my body was breaking out into nervous sweats.

I need to be brave when I see Jennie.

Once I exit the shower room I change into Seulgi's clothing , she packed me fresh socks too? I have great friends

I literally disposed my dirty clothes in the trash because it was just making me sick.

Then I rushed out to Jennie who was in the ICU unit

"She's awake , you can visit her" the nurse says to me as I take a deep breath

I literally run to her , I tried to play it cool but seeing her with the oxygen mask on , different drips attached to her body and her groaning in pain just hurt me too damn much

"It's okay baby , it's okay , it's over now" I whisper as I plant a kiss on her head

"It's hurts" she cries

"I'll call the nurse , maybe they can give you some heavy pain killers"

I rush out to the nurse and she told me she would bring them

"She's bringing you some pain killers okay , you'll feel better once you have them" I panic

Jennie didn't talk instead she kept groaning in pain , her head moving left and right , I felt helpless , she looked like she was struggling so much until the nurse came in to give her pain killers , she managed to give them to Jennie , and then seat her up

"Be careful you have stitches near your stomach , and ribs so try not to move so much , press the emergency button if you need me" the nurse says but jennie doesn't respond she doesn't have the energy too.

"Please don't take this off" the woman places the oxygen mask on Jennie's mouth and nose correctly

I hated seeing her in this state.

I tried my best to not to burst into tears , I need to keep strong for her.

Hopefully when the painkillers come through she will be fine.

Her eyes were closed and her tears gently streamed out without a word and that broke me

"I wish it was me in this position not you" I say to her as I gently brush her forehead with my fingers , moving her hair back

I watch as her fingers gently try and reach out to me , I grab hold of her hand and lift them up leaving kisses on her hand as I rock back and forth in tears, trying to wipe them with my other hand because I didn't want to cry in front of Jennie.

We sit in silence , I occasionally kept wiping the tears that flowed through her eyes even though her eyes were shut I knew she was awake every time her thumb drew circles around my knuckles trying to give me comfort as well.

I wish she never had to go through this suffering? Why couldn't it of been me if it had to be one of us , I rather I go through this than my wife who used to live her life to the fullest , everyday was an adventure , everyday was filled with laughter and then this piece of shit cancer came into our lives and destroyed every ounce of happiness we had.

The whole day went away with me leaning on the desk on my arms , in the hospital room watching Jennie sleep , I told her I wasn't going to leave.

The whole night I watched over Jennie until I fell asleep , it went on like that for a couple of days until Jisoo came in.

"Go home , shower , freshen up I'll keep a look out" jisoo whispers as she touches my shoulder

"No no , it's fine im not going to leave Jennie" I whisper back

"Lisa trust me she would want you to get some rest at home , I'll be here and I'll call you if anything happens" Jisoo responds as I stand up

"I'll be quick" I say watching Jisoo take my seat

I rush home as I quickly freshen up , wow the police really did raid my house , luckily I have security who have been on look out , I hand my butler a heavy amount of money. "Buy a new door for the house please" I say to him as I rush back out of the house.

I run back into the hospital room to see Jennie not in the bed

"Jennie isn't reacting to well to the operation , they're operating on her again , I fucking gave you like 50 miss calls " jisoo sighs

"The police still has my fucking phone I thought you had the iPhone 5 number"

"No I don't , chae is asleep at home , even she wasn't answering , I literally thought she was going to die" Jisoo holds her chest as her eyes were full of tears , like she was terrified , she was still shaking

"I know I shouldn't of left , I thought she was recovering , I'm sorry"

"It's not your fault , it happened regardless Lisa , weather you left or was still here , I told you to go , I just panicked because no one was answering their phones" she shakes her head

"Her heart rate wasn't improving they'll have to do the operation on her heart right now Lisa" jisoo adds as she sits beside me in the hospital passage way with the seating.

"I didn't even get to say bye to her again" I literally am losing my mind , how do I fuck up so bad , the one time I leave Jennie's heart rate started getting worse. Her life machine had started beeping and doctors and nurses rushed in.