I am Ukrainian🇺🇦. (A VLODYMYR ZELENSKYY FANFIC)

Chapter 4

The Nightmares
At around 3am I woke up to Manu waking me up. Once I woke up he turned on the light on my side table to see I was covered in sweat from thrushing around in bed a few minutes earlier. Turns out he stood there in the door for a minute to try and figure out what the nightmare was about. All he could hear was "please don't leave me" "hold on just a while longer" " this is not how it ends you hear me you can't die on me like this" "BREATH!" "come on please please don't die"

This tore his heart right out of his chest. The hurt, sadness the loss the confusion all was evedent in my voice apparently. He sat there comfoting me for a while till I fell back asleep. The next morning he walked over to the bed gently called my while rubbing my arm. I woke up flew into his arms crying. He just held me like this for a while. After about an hour my breathing evened out and I was sleeping again. He layed me back down and was just about to leave when I said "Manu?" He simply answered "yes? “. I asked him to stay with me for a while.  He came to lay down to lay down on the bed I immediately rolled over and had my head resting on his chest just above his heart. Soon enough we were both back to sleeping. I didn't wake up again that morning but this kept going on for about 2 weeks. Every night he will wake me up and  hold me after a nightmare.

It was always the same one him dying and leaving me alone all over again.

That first Saturday morning after I got disvharged from hospital and moved in to Élysée Palace he got up made some breakfast and went back up to call me and Bridget. I had a few bites and a glass of OJ. For lunch I had soup and again had a few spoons full. Turns out food and Chemotherapy was a bad idea. For dinner I had jelly. I managed to eat more than half of it. By the end of the 2 weeks mark i was having full bowls of Jelly. I finally started walking around the garden  with Manu and Bridget. But would get tired real fast.

Start of month 2

By the second month we were talking about everything. Laughing our heads off and spent every waking moment together. We often layed on the sofa and cuddled. It was nice to have them fill a hole in my life I never knew existed till then. We often spent the mornings
Working, afternoons having lunvh together and evenings watching movies. By month 3 Bridget and I started going out to go shopping or for a movie or something and we always had a great time. Somewhere along the way I noticed I didn't have the nightmares anymore as often as I use to. But we were down to 1 every other week so it was alot better. I also now understood the source of my sorrow. I wish I never had to go through that pain. But life has a weird way of building us up for something even greater. Bit by bit we became closer and closer. 

A whole new beginning
By the end of the 4th month Manu, Bridget and I were best friends and shared everything with the other. So one afternoon while on holiday I asked Manu do you trust me? He said "of course I do" . I laughed, hug him and said "ok be in  surf gear at 23h00. I left a wetsuit in your room it should fit" He took the opportunity to remind me he does not know how to surf and the ocean at night is a bad idea and he is old.  I laughed and said " You Sir are only old when you feel like abusing the privilege. Besides you are only 10 years older than me" I reminded him. He just laughed and said "Touche" .

At 23h00 I was downstairs waiting for Manu and Bridget. I knew Bridget does not like swimming so she stayed on the beach. Manu and I  took our boards and out we went.

We ran into the ocean and went to sit behind the break water. He commented on how beautiful and bright the stars looked from there And how one truely can reflect sitting way out here. I never thought that I would ever get to share this with a friend and much less be surfing at night with one. I told him that he should lay back on his board and close his eyes. To think about what I want from the future. Oden will give us a sign that our dreams will come true. But that he should not open his eyes until we hear the bells chime. He was confused at this what bells and what are we doing. But he trusted me layed back and started imaging everything. I did the same. At some point after we heard the church bells chime and when we looked up. There was millions of shooting stars. I looked at his face and saw how he loved the sight before him. I pulled his board closer to me. Softly whispered his name and he looked me in the eyes. I smiled it was midnight under a millon shooting stars and church bells chiming in the background. Thats When I saw the tears running down his cheeks. I wiped them away and asked what was the matter. He wasn't crying because he was sad or for a bad memory. This time he was crying because he was happy. We were both happy. I took his hand in mine and we just watched the stars for a while longer in silence. After about 10 minutes I broke the silence and said we have to get out of here right now. So we swam in and barely got to Bridget before the first sign of thunder cracked the sky. I looked at them we were all wet, cold and slightly out of breath. I don't know when but we were laughing again.  We ran inside to our different rooms took a hot shower and I ran downstairs for coffee. There he was wet hair and all holding my cup of coffee out for me to take. I took it and  thanked him for tonight and asked how Bridget liked it. He told me she had fun and she loved it. She even took a few photos and a video. He dragged me towards the livingroom sofa. There we cuddled again. We spoke for hours laughed alot but soon we were exhausted and went to our beds.

The next morning I was standing by the glass door drinking coffee watching the water. They said morning but I was lost in mybown mind. Bridget came over asked if everything was ok? I answered  no. Manu got worried and asked what was wrong. I was crying again. Apologizing for being a burden on them. They both hugged me and said "you are no such thing" Bridget began. When Manu continued "We love you and we want whats best for you." we just stood there in a hug for the longest time until one of the workers interupted us.

I went back to my room and took a nap. I was still very tired but atleast chemotherapy were done with and now I was awaiting the bone marrow match. I was happy that atleast for a short while there would be no needles. I hate those.