Emotions

They Know

I can't stop thinking about what Aidien, Jaden, Chris, and Jess said about dating Lief.

I've fallen back into my regular routine so I'm not consistently thinking about it but everytime I look at his fluffy hair and beautiful forest green eyes I can't help but think about dating him.

I've been staring at him a lot more. Just looking at him eases the effects of the negativity. I'm still tired but I don't feel as shitty. I know the others have noticed my staring but I honestly don't care.

Anything to ease the effects of the negativity. I haven't cut since the time after the challenge when I wasn't as used to the negativity.

The bell rang for lunch and I got up from my seat. I took an envelope from my backpack. I walked down three rows from my seat towards the back of the seats. A girl with brown hair and eyes was sitting, looking out the window.

The class was emptying out as I stood by her desk, still unnoticed by her.

"Hello," I said, snapping her out of whatever she was thinking.

"Oh, hi," she replied politely. She was emitting a lot of negative emotion so I decided I was gonna leave as fast I could.

"For you," I placed the envelope on her desk and quickly walked out of the classroom to the cafeteria. It was the money I had collected for her. Ania. It was a little less than a thousand dollars but I hoped it helped.

We had sloppy Joe's today with an apple.

"Hey," I said as I sat next to Lief. Across from me was Amelia. Next to her was Ella. Matthew was on the other side of Lief and across from Jack.

I didn't usually sit next to Lief because I liked looking at him but I wanted to be closer to him today.

Matthew was talking about the upcoming math championship before we heard a familiar voice.

"Can I sit here?" I rose my head from the table and looked at who the voice had come from. Alexander.

"No," I stated putting my head back in my arms. He ignored me and sat down right next to me.

"So what were you guys talking about?"

Everyone looked at him awkwardly, "uhhh..."

"None of your buisness," I said with a hint of annoyance. Other than that my voice was in its usual gentle tone.

Suddenly someone hugged me from behind. I gasped in shock as my waist was grabbed and my head shot up.

"Ania," I gasped after realizing it was her and still in shock. She let go and beamed a wide smile at me.

"Thank you!" She exclaimed before hugging me again, this time from the front.

"Uh, yeah. I hope it helped," I patted her back awkwardly. She finally let go.

"Thank you again. It really will help. Thank you. I'll see you sometime."

I nodded as she walked away waving. I turned back around in my seat.

Alex was smirking almost evily and he 'playfully' cooed, "oooh is that your girlfriend?"

A wave of jealousy was emitted at that. Leif. Alex was just out to get me, wasn't he?

"No, I'm gay," I stated as I put my head back in my arms. The jealousy disappeared.

"Oh." At first I was a little surprised at his response but then he continued, "does that mean you would date me?"

There was a wave of jealousy but also a little anger.

"No, you're not my type."

"Oh? What's your type then?" I could just feel his smirk.