We called my mom what felt like a thousand times.
So we just drove to her house.
We all got out.
Demony started banging on the door.
Nobody answered.
I twisted the nob and the door was unlocked.
We slowly walked in to see my mother laid out on the floor completely out of it with a needle in her arm.
Demony dropped down and grabbed our mom.
He started shaking her.
"MA! MAA! GET UP!" Demony yelled.
The house was completely empty. No furniture , no tv , nothing.
It was freezing cold.
And it was filthy.
I looked to my left to see the little girl in the corner holding a pearly white teddybear.
She had on nothing but a pullup and a onesie.
I walked over to her.
"Hi , i'm Tae okay? Is that your mommy?" I asked as I pointed to Demony and my mom.
She nodded.
"It's okay , that's my mommy too. I'm your brother. I'm not here to hurt you , I just want to keep you safe." I said as I held my arms out for her.
She damnear ran into them.
My automatic reaction was to hug her.
I hugged her so tight.
Me and Demony went thru the same damn things as kids.
Dealing with a coke out mother and a drug dealer for a father.
And he was the one giving her the drugs.
The little girl hugged me back.
"What's your name?" I asked.
"Bleu" The little girl mumbled.
Her arms were freezing cold.
I picked her up and gave her to Ki'moura.
"This is my bestfriend okay? Her name is Ki'moura. She's gonna put you in my car with a blanket and a pillow okay?" I said to Bleu.
She nodded.
"Moura put her in tv backseat and grab that big blanket that's on the seat and lay some of it on the seat , put her ontop of that and cover her with the other part of it." I said.
"Okay." Ki'moura said as she walked out with TJ.
I dropped down to the floor with Demony and my mom.
I went on the other side of her and held her too.
"Ma wake up please .." I cried.
"Ma .. I need you. Please don't do this shit to me again , don't leave me again." Demony cried.
I put my finger in front of her nose to see if she was still breathing.
Demony check her pulse.
She was gone.
I put my head in her chest and sobbed.
Demony got up and started punching the walls and crying.
I got up and grabbed Demony's fists.
We broke down on the floor together.
Ki'moura and TJ ran in.
They looked at my mothers lifeless body and realized.
TJ sat on the side of me , Ki'moura sat on the side of Demony.
TJ grabbed me and hugged me.
I eventually got up and started making my way out the door.
"Y'all not gon call 911 to come get her?" Ki'moura asked.
"Nah ... let ha ass stay there. That's exactly where she wanted to be. Dead. Laid out with a needle in her arm infront of her kids. But except it wasn't me and Taven .. it was a lil girl who knows nothing about this shit! THAT LIL GIRL NEED YOU MA! AND YOU LEFT HER JUST LIKE YOU DID ME AND TAE! AT LEAST WHEN YOU LEFT US , THERE WAS A CHANCE OF YOU COMING BACK! TWO WEEKS! TWO WEEKS YOU LEFT US IN THE HOUSE WITH NO FOOD , NO WATER , NO WAY TO REACH YOU!
WHEN YOU LEFT ME ON A CORNER AFTER I GOT SHOT SEVEN TIMES AT THE AGE OF FIFTEEN .. I KNEW I WAS GON HAVE TO RAISE MYSELF! I RAISED TAVEN! THAT MIGHT BE MY BROTHER BUT HE WAS THE BEST KID TO RAISE AND I RAISED HIM WELL! FUCK YOU MA! FOR ALL THE SHIT YOU PUT ME , TAVEN , AND THAT LITTLE GIRL THRU! CAUSE I KNOW YOU DID IT TO HER TOO!
BEST BELIEVE WHEN I HAVE MY KIDS , IMA BE THE PARENT YOU COULDN'T BE! A GOOD ONE!" Demony snapped as he got up.
TJ and Ki'moura looked at Mony like they seen a ghost.
Mony just hit his breaking point and I honestly can't say I blame him.
She put us thru so much.
She left him on a street corner with 7 bullet wounds in him.
She threw me out after she caught me playing in her lashes and lipgloss.
She said she would never raise a faggot and a thug for sons.
I walked out and got in the car.
TJ got in my passenger seat.
"She okay?" He asked.
We both looked back and seen that Bleu was fast asleep , holding her teddy bear.
"Yea .. she won't remember any of it. I just .." My sentence was stopped by me sobbing.
He grabbed me and hugged me.
When the hug broke .. we stared into each other's eyes.
He grabbed my chin and kissed me.
With tears running down my cheeks , I accepted the kiss.
His lips detached from mines.
"Don't tell nobody aight? Ima see you later." He said as he got out the car and got in his car.
I pulled off.
When we got home.
I got out the car and slowly picked up Bleu , trying not to wake her up.
Ki'moura tried grab Bleu's teddy bear but she wouldn't let it go.
I walked in the house and took her upstairs and laid her on my bed.
She looked so peaceful .. like nothing in the world mattered.
I'm sad that she'll never have that mother , daughter experience with mommy but .. i'm glad she doesn't have to see mommy how me and Demony used to see mommy ..
